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Dreams, Signs and Syncs, Plus … Astrobutterfly ~ The Astrology of 2020: A New Order

For those interested in a breakdown of the biggest astrological events of 2020, have a look at Astrobutterfly’s latest post, which you can find here.

On a personal note, I have to laugh, because yet again, these major events — especially the planets changing direction and the shift from Earth to Air energy — are hitting exact spots in both my natal and 9th Harmonic Charts. It’s getting uncanny, but at least it may explain why I’ve had such vivid dreams and why my waking life seems like a dream. In an email to my astrology mentor and friend Ann Krielkamp, today I wrote: Continue reading

Session Themes and Navigating this Potent Week of Energies

In recent months, but especially the last two weeks, I’ve noticed a major recurring theme in sessions. I thought I’d share a little of that theme here, since it seems to be somewhat of a collective process if so many individuals are going through it right now. I’ll also share links to some insightful articles about this week’s super intense events in the sky. This weekend brings a perfect storm of aspects all coming together … and yet these aspects continue to ricochet off past and future potent transits. In my own chart, these eclipses and mega-events hit majorly sensitive spots, so I’m not only observing effects in sessions and in the collective, but also very much in my inner and outer life.

Radical Vulnerability

One theme I continue to encounter is that of vulnerability. Specifically, life seems to be putting people into what would normally feel like a worst nightmare Catch-22: a situation in which the only way to survive, heal or succeed means exposing themselves in a nakedly vulnerable way. These people faced hurt in the past — deep wounds from trusting the wrong people, from being abused, or punished for seeming “weak.” They learned to shut down in order to protect themselves, and especially their hearts.

With Jupiter now opposing the North Node in Cancer, there’s a big (Jupiter) collective push to become more childlike (Cancer) and to allow someone else to care for us in a safe, heartfelt and grown up way. Re-parenting issues abound, and they’re prickly issues, because these people learned not to trust parents or authority figures. The risk feels even more difficult with a stellium of planets (Sun, Mercury, Jupiter, Saturn, Pluto) and the transiting South Node (past lives, old habits) in Capricorn right now. The dominant energy stands tall in Capricorn, sign of self-sufficiency ruled by stern patriarch Saturn. Yet the collective path forward (North Node) involves feeling, empathic, childlike, mothering and receptive to mothering Cancer.

For most of the people being called to vulnerability, “losing control” or “not having it together” is very scary.

I reminded two clients yesterday that “It takes a lot of courage to admit you’re terrified.” We all laughed, but recognized that truth. It’s OK to feel afraid. That’s part of the process. Courage is not living without fear. Courage comes from cœur — the French word for “heart.” Having courage means your heart feels enough love for others — and in this case, for yourself, for whatever you need — to face the fear and embrace the opportunities at hand.

Jupiter brings luck, truth, optimism and buoyant support. While life has forced people into this uncomfortable position of needing to embrace their own vulnerability — life has also brought just the right people together to make that happen. Whether through a doctor, therapist, friend, mentor, or new romance, people having their hearts cracked open are also finding just the right person or people to love and nurture their budding tenderness.

I keep seeing or hearing about this, over and over. It’s amazing how many people are going through this exact process right now. To me, it seems like part of the New Earth energies — a deep and powerful love frequency.

This process requires discernment. Unfortunately, not everyone is a safe person. If you’ve felt pushed in this direction, though, look deeper at the relationships in your life. See if you notice an obvious opening, even if it feels scary or bizarre to explore that possibility. Something seems to be orchestrating opportunities for increased tenderness and vulnerability. This new love frequency feels protective and regenerative. Considering all the other energies headed our way, having courage in this most personal area will make you stronger and better able to weather the storms.

The Big Astro Weather Week

Since many of the big fireworks this coming weekend involve long cycled planets, we’ve already been living with some of these energies for a long time. I mentioned some key events in my Happy Solstice, Happy Anniversary, Happy Holidays, and Merry Christmas Eclipse post. The December 25th/26th eclipse links into this weekend and will continue to play out over the coming weeks and months. A brief listing of coming attractions follows:

Wednesday, January 8th: Jupiter exactly conjunct the South Node at 8° Capricorn

Friday, January 10th: Full Moon Lunar Eclipse at 20° Cancer with a tightly packed Sun, Mercury, Saturn and Pluto all in 20-22° Capricorn. As Pam Younghans notes, this Full Moon Lunar Eclipse also involves Ceres (21° Capricorn) and Chariklo (24° Capricorn), bringing a feminine energy to that potent stellium. In addition, Juno (the faithful wife) sits at 19° Libra, and Eris (the scorned Goddess) at 23° Aries, both squared by those opposing energies in Cancer and Capricorn.

The Trans-Neptunian-Object known as Arawn — named after the Welsh God of the Underworld — also rules at 20° Capricorn right now. Arawn amplifies both the Saturnian and Plutonian energies, exponentially amplifying the Capricorn energy face-off with the Cancer Full Moon. The 12/12/19 Full Moon was intense, but this one feels out of this world.

Saturday, January 10th or 11th (depending on time zone): Uranus stations direct at 2°37′ Taurus. Uranus went retrograde on August 11, 2019. The Rx motion tones down the Uranian urge to kick out the jambs, rabble rouse, rebel and liberate. When an outer planet stations direct, its power amplifies, especially at the point of shift. I’ve shared lots of writing about Uranus in Taurus, and we can expect this shift to encapsulate and liberate those energies.

Sunday, January 12th: Saturn exactly conjuncts Pluto for the one and only time at 22°46′ Capricorn. This is a hugely big deal. Saturn only conjuncts Pluto once every 35-40 years, and not always in the same sign. To have this conjunction occur right on the heels of a powerful Lunar Eclipse and Uranus stationing direct brings so many planets, points and objects together it’s like Rachmaninoff in the skies.

If you’d like more details on the coming transits, I recommend:

Pam Younghan’s North Point Astrology Journal: Your Guide to Planetary Energies January 6-12, 2020

Astro Butterfly’s The Astrology of January 2020 — Saturn Conjunct Pluto in Capricorn

On a Personal Note:

These transits keep dogging me! To explain all the ways these cosmic events keep triggering precise and super sensitive spots in my chart would sound too technical and boring to most. Suffice to say, I’m not just empathing the collective and my clients’ experiences. I’m getting loads of exact hits on both my natal and 9th Harmonic charts. It’s kind of mind boggling, but at least it explains why for years, I’ve viewed this time period through 2025 as pivotal for me. I always link into the collective in very personal micro/macro ways, so I’m curious to see how it all plays out.

If you’ve not read Ringing in a New Decade and a New Earth, that gives more of a dreamlike overview of the coming energies. I told a client yesterday that I feel an excited sense of dread — kind of like approaching the peak of a very high and windy rollercoaster. How fast and wild will it go? Will destiny’s force feel exhilarating and/or terrifying? We live in exciting and interesting times.

If you’re not one for Rachmaninoff, you might like this Melody Sheep version of Bill Hicks and George Carlin. One of my favorites!

Blessed Be … and be the blessing.

Ringing in a New Decade and a New Earth

I’ve had so many potent dreams — even more so than usual. A recent one, I called “Nurture Tenderness,” involved “six agreements” whose enactment would bring in the New Earth frequencies. The first of those agreements was “Nurture Tenderness.” I decided to share a little more here as we close out 2019 and enter 2020, because Tania mentioned how my dream reminded her of Lee Harris’ 2020 Energy Forecast, recorded 12/12/19, but which she just posted today. He, too, lists six themes, which coincide with so many of my recent dreams. From Lee’s YouTube channel:

Themes discussed in the 2020 Energy Forecast include:

BLINDING CLARITY (Intuition/Truths + Truth-Telling/Mental Re-arrangement)

RISE OF LOVE THROUGH DEATH AWARENESS (The death of people/relationships/animals/nature/systems)

COLLABORATION AND TEAMS (The Upswing of people coming together to collaborate and work with each other)

GROUNDING VIA NATURE (The technology take-off/distraction of attention being leveled through Nature but also Natural Disasters/Loss and local events)

CREATIVITY AT HIGH SPEED (Faster than ever creative endeavors – with less internal resistance and more need/embrace in the outside world)

HEART HEALING (Conflict Energy showing up as a trigger for heart healing/the rise of emotional awareness and the need for more people to lead in the realms of heart healing, mindfulness and emotional intelligence)

His video clocks in at 1 hour 11 minutes, and you can watch it here:

Lee’s list summarizes my past four months of extremely intense and often quickly validated, precognitive dreams. I’ve also experienced what I can only describe as “spontaneous rituals,” where life creates such elaborate synchronicities that they feel like planned rituals, dripping in lush symbolism, with a beginning, middle and end. I am not the same person I was before encountering these journeys, most of which feature over-the-top womb, birth, and death symbolism. Here’s a photo from an exhibit called “The Womb,” by artist Rebecca Louise Law, at Meijer Sculpture Gardens:

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My experience inside this corridor and womb (made of nearly one million dried flowers) was so personal that I don’t feel led to share it here. Entering the floral womb in the center, with a loud heartbeat over just imperceptible music, and all that fragrance triggered an inner rebirth that then continued to spill forth throughout the day, in synchronicities with my exact birth time, first breath and finding a perfectly hidden, (yet intuitively revealed to me and then validated) dead coyote in half-frozen sand sculptures on the edge of Lake Michigan’s waves. Just before sunset. On the Eve of Winter Solstice. I’m still unpacking the entire day’s events. Too personal and interwoven with synchronicity overloads to share more here.

In my same dream that featured the party/class sharing the six agreements to facilitate living on the New Earth, there was another part of the dream that involved sniffing a “really stinky navel.” It was actually my own navel, but the stinky navel brought a big grin and was “OK, because it can give birth.” The really stinky navel had something to do with Cosmic Rebirth. It smelled of deep Earth and ozone — extremely pungent, green moss and fertile soil.

Another dream featured special boxes that could “rejuvenate very old people” if delivered to the correct address, which was “20 Virgo.” Besides a personal meaning to me, I find it fascinating that the Dane Rudhyar Sabian Symbol for 20 Virgo invokes a New World collective journey:

PHASE 170 (VIRGO 20°): A CARAVAN OF CARS HEADED TO THE WEST COAST.

KEYNOTE: The need of cooperative effort in reaching any “New World” of experience.

It is difficult to know, from the original formulation of the clairvoyant’s vision, the type of caravan of cars that was visualized; what seems to be clearly implied is a process in which a group of persons are journeying together — thus linking their consciousnesses and energies (the “car” symbol) — in order to safely reach the goal of destiny. Here there is no longer any sense of competition, but an ordered and structured endeavor.

At this last stage of the five-fold sequence the past is entirely left behind; men cooperate in the great “adventure in consciousness” in a TOTALIZATION OF PURPOSE AND EFFORT.

In order to deliver the rejuvenating boxes to 20 Virgo, “I had to crawl out of this dirt floor passageway with the boxes intact, then down another ladder and try to find the right location where the people were, who needed reviving.” (I’m quoting from today’s dream journal entry.)

“On the way, there was a display with all sorts of stories made out of tiny seeds. People kept asking me if this was the story they heard in their youth, but how would I know that? I just guessed sometimes yes, sometimes no. The colored seeds in transparent vertical boxes were like the book covers.” (Everything was arranged like a library, and each seed contained an entire story, each vertical glass holder appeared as a book with thousands of seeds making up the images of the book covers.) “Time was running a little short, and I needed to get to the 20 Virgo, which was now an address.”

I don’t have exact interpretations of these dreams, but the symbols seem over the top and not just relevant to me.

On a recent walk, I silently asked if I could and should trust what I’ve been shown as the new coming in. I immediately noticed a feather on the ground. I walked past the feather, then heard, “Turn around. Pick it up. That was for you.” Before turning around, I felt/knew “It’s an owl feather.” Sure enough, it appears to be so. Its edges have the special fringe that allows for silent flight. As I continued my walk, a solitary stag with medium sized antlers walked slowly across the road in front of me.

This morning’s sunrise came between very low and very high, dark thick clouds, initiating between these layers a long, horizontal rainbow. I wasn’t sure what, if anything, to share as we close out this decade, but this seems just right.

Love, Blessings and Happy New Year!

Laura

Precognitive Blues, Part One: Dreams, Warnings and Blessings

The title and topic of this blog post have been rolling around in my dreams and waking life for several weeks. Whenever I’ve tried to change the title, I get a “No,” and so far, whenever I’ve considered sitting down to write this piece, I hear, “Not yet.” Until today. Apparently, today’s the day. It strikes me that the process I just described illustrates much of what this post will cover.

Idea/insight. No, don’t change the title, but you can add a subtitle. No, not yet. Not YET. NOT YET. …. No, no, Now!

Because I write about precognitive dreams and work with so many people who’ve had brain injuries and/or Lyme disease, I have a fair number of psychic clients, too. Precognitive dreams and related topics arise in sessions, and people feel grateful they’re not the only one. Some of my clients work as professional intuitives, others could but haven’t gained confidence yet, or their life path involves using intuitive skills in different ways. Whatever the career or path, though, an influx of seemingly precognitive messages tends to disrupt the present.

On the one hand, people appreciate a Cosmic Heads Up. On the other hand, “future memories,” premonitions, timely warnings and extreme time bending complicate ordinary life, even while trying to simplify it.

If loved ones or coworkers live only in linear time, then becoming “unstuck in time” threatens not just your, but also their sense of “reality.” Few people let their sense of reality go without a fight. I don’t recommend these, but traumatic brain injury and/or lightning strikes are two of the most effective ways to become unstuck in time. There are easier, slower ways, but TBI and lightning seem to fast track the process. I also find extreme precognition in war veterans and people who suffered childhood sexual abuse. The death of a loved one or other foundation shattering trauma at an early age also seems to trigger precognitive abilities.

Despite its complications, precognition offers many advantages — especially for people with a very insistent life path or mission. In my opinion and experience, it pays to learn to work with this process, because it seems to happen anyway. Like it or not, the rules and perspective of life operate in different ways for precog people. I find the Cosmic Heads Up intends to help, comfort and prepare. Some people try to numb out with alcohol, drugs or nonstop trauma drama, but this loss of control seems to increase and intensify the messages until Something throws them from the Tower for a chance to start again.

Rider-Waite-Smith Tower Card from the Tarot

Not all precognitive dreams and synchronicities are bad. William Butler Yeats’ favorite Tarot card was actually the Tower Card, because it offered so much creative potential and a chance for rebirth. We tend to fight change — even positive change — because the familiar feels more comfortable. When we sense we need to change and grow, we often underestimate the degree. That’s probably by design, because if we knew everything we needed to release before we have the new in place, we would feel temporarily untethered. Feeling untethered, unmoored, and unhinged precedes a breakthrough, but this stage of breakthrough often feels like breakdown.

Since strong emotions tend to trigger precognitive awareness, the Cosmic Heads Up often brings “negative” awareness, but we can also invite insights into upcoming opportunities. I’ve written a lot about changing timelines, and a Cosmic Heads Up can help us to choose the most optimal future, based on extra awareness of likely trajectories or unalterable events. Carl Jung said, “Whatever is not made conscious will be experienced as fate.” I find that obvious after 18 years working as a medical intuitive. But Jung also said something a little more difficult to swallow: “Free will is doing gladly and freely that which one must do.” Continue reading

Book Review ~ Hidden Experience, by Mike Clelland

“Hidden Experience: collected writings from ten years of blogging 2009-2019,” by Mike Clelland, shares “the strange challenges of otherworldly contact, where confronting the darkest unknowns can ultimately lead to transformation.” The supposed theme of this book is a question about UFO abduction, but really, the question could be any huge, foundation-shattering and life-altering realization triggered by dreams, confusing events, and truly uncanny coincidences.

As the posts and years go by, Mike wrestles with existential crises, clinical depression, and deep inner healing. We follow the development of close soul friendships, as well as the loss of friends through death. We see how Mike’s public grappling with personal trauma and the Big Questions opens doors for others to share their stories, too. And we see how some relationships break rather than expand into larger implications. These are universal human experiences on the path of self discovery — told in an intimate, vulnerable way, often in real time.

Full disclosure: I know Mike Clelland, because he spent years interviewing me for a chapter in his “Stories from the Messengers” book and more recently for “The Unseen” podcast. Although I know Mike and consider his work a sacred path, I do not follow his blog. I check in once in awhile, but for me much of this material was new. It doesn’t read in chronological blog order. Rather, he thematically collates the posts and includes comments and updates from across the years. He also shares his own 2019 take on earlier experiences, revealing how the meanings of synchronicities, relationships and mysterious events can unfold and change across time.

The time looping and spiral journey nature of this book also models a process for embracing the “little things” that connect us to the Great Mystery, and to each other. By sharing so many of his own specific memories, details, timestamps, and experiences, Mike taps into the universal. Though true, the book kind of reads like an epistolary novel. My favorite parts are the hypnosis transcripts, his eulogies, and especially the passages about his friendship with the late Mac Tonnies. A tension between mind and heart runs throughout, yet despite the struggle, his heart keeps shining.

The Introduction begins with Joseph Campbell’s quote: “We must be willing to let go of the life we planned so as to have the life that is waiting for us.” In the Conclusion, Mike says, “Recently, someone asked me how my life has changed because of these experiences. I thought for a moment and said, ‘I now live in a magical universe.’ I meant that, I see reality as something much richer and more mysterious than I could have ever conceived.” The final page of the book echoes a vivid dream of Mike’s from 2012, posted on his 50th birthday. In all bold letters, it says: “Follow your heart.”

“Hidden Experience” is about the spiritual journey and continuing to find the courage to walk it — one step or quantum leap at a time. Highly recommended!

Steven Forrest ~ Healing the Collective Hurt

Astrologer Steven Forrest’s latest newsletter really highlights and explains October’s energies as they relate to the Moon’s Nodes — those spots associated with individual and collective karma and life path. Wherever our own natal North and South Nodes are, we still inhabit a collective realm. For some people, the current Node positions are extremely relevant in composite or progressed charts, even if you know nothing of astrology. Because these energies get triggered from deep, dark, chthonic healing Scorpio, paying attention to the heads up makes sense. You can read Steven’s stellar insights here.

Comment Bump Up from the Mike Clelland interview of Laura Bruno

This is a comment bump up from the post of Mike Clelland’s interview of me on Whitley Strieber’s Unknown Country. (You can read what I had to say about that interview here.)

The comments are all very supportive and excited, until September 7, when reader William C says:

Michael, forgive me, but I cannot believe you take all these New Age practitioners seriously and give them a public forum. Lyme disease is a horrible disease. To equate it to some sort of spiritual awakening is almost obscene. But hey, I was trounced on Whitley’s forum for not being a New Ager, since I guess that is a prerequisite around here. Really sad.

Something led me to pop over to the interview page today, and I happened to see the comment. I felt it important to reply there, and also to share the exchange here, for clarity:

I’m sorry you feel that way, William. I can assure you that I in no way trivialize the horrible experiences of my Lyme clients. I nursed my (then) husband through Chronic Lyme, and I also survived my own infection with Lyme. It IS a brutal, existentially crushing disease, and I do not take that lightly.

The emails I receive from people who’ve read my writings on Lyme disease, as well as comments from clients with advanced, Chronic Lyme, share a sense of relief, a “clicking in,” profound gratitude, and a feeling of finding the blessings and especially the Meaning within the trauma. It’s like Victor Frankl’s ability to survive his concentration camp experience by finding meaning.

Those I know who have completed the “initiation” for lack of a better term, are living deeper, more joyful and meaningful lives than they ever imagined they could prior to Lyme. That in no way invalidates the journey or the scars they acquired along the way, but those soul wounds also triggered much deeper healing and inner peace.

I realize how from a superficial look, other people would consider me a New Ager, but I am actually NOT a proponent of New Age fluffy luv-n-lite. I find it toxic, disabling and disempowering, but I’ve learned not to throw the baby out with the bathwater. Some tools and concepts, taken much deeper, can heal in profound and loving ways. “Know thyself” is powerful advice and balm, and sometimes it helps to have someone reflect that self back to you. I consider this sacred work, and I wish you well.

Peace,

Laura

UPDATE 9/9/19 Comment Bump Up from the comments to this post on my blog:

I define “New Age” as diluted and distorted Mystery Teachings that people swallow because of the “truth signature” while not discerning that there may be poison and lies tagging along for the ride. At its worst, luv-n-lite callously victim-shames and/or spiritually bypasses opportunities for real growth. True Love and True Light nurture and heal, whereas New Age platitudes act more like a sugar rush and/or superfoods laced with toxic heavy metals. Not a fan!