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Full Moon in Taurus, Lunar Eclipse ~ November 19, 2021

My November 2021 Forecast noted:

November 19 Full Moon Lunar Eclipse in Taurus, 3:47 a.m. Eastern. We begin eclipse season with a Full Moon in late Taurus. The Sabian Symbol for this Full Moon is “A WOMAN, PAST HER CHANGE OF LIFE, EXPERIENCES A NEW LOVE.” These energies put strong emphasis on new beginnings that arise from a place of maturity. Pluto trining from Capricorn offers extra determination and empowerment.

Dane Rudhyar’s full Sabian Symbol description seems worth pondering:

PHASE 58 (TAURUS 28°): A WOMAN, PAST HER “CHANGE OF LIFE,” EXPERIENCES A NEW LOVE.  

KEYNOTE: Man’s capacity to rise in consciousness and feelings above biological limitations.

After having stated the youthful and the aged approach of the human individual to the use of what his culture has brought to him, the symbolism stresses man’s capacity to rise above the limitations which both biological nature and the “normal” social pattern of behavior have tried to impose on him. As in many of the preceding symbols, a “woman” is pictured, because at this early stage of the cyclic process the individual consciousness still has a receptive or “feminine” polarity — as was indicated in the very first symbol of the entire cycle (Aries 1°).

Whenever this third stage of the twelfth sequence is brought to a person’s consciousness, the indication is that he or she should freely open his or her mind to the possibility of always new REBEGINNINGS. Ideally, the new beginning should imply a more mature response to the new possibility of experience.

Following the powerful New Moon in Scorpio, this Full Moon Lunar Eclipse in Taurus reminds us to look for and cultivate new blessings, even as circumstances, vitality and relationships fall away.

Eclipse effects last six months, so this seems like a prelude to the first exact Pluto Return of the United States. For six years, we’ve dealt with a symbolic “peri-menopausal” time of change, as transiting Pluto approaches the Pluto point in the US natal chart from 7/4/1776. In symbolic terms, the US has endured dry spells, spotting, missed periods, heavy bleeding, fiery hot flashes, depression, rage, irrational fears, fatigue, brain fog, and severe hormonal imbalance. As with a personal peri-menopause, these shifts affect those around us, too. In this case, the entire world. We’ve experienced unpredictable changes to formerly regular cycles: but it hasn’t yet been a year since our last period.

The technical definition of “menopause” is when a full year has passed since the last period. Peri-menopause — the time leading up to this “change of life” — can last for years, sometimes over a decade. Again, the Sabian Symbol of this Full Moon Lunar Eclipse is A WOMAN, PAST HER “CHANGE OF LIFE,” EXPERIENCES A NEW LOVE. The process of peri-menopause tracks with a Pluto transit: a long, slow destruction that leads to new life. Menopause shifts the creative process from physical womb to a fully engaged rebirth. Instead of losing blood each month, all that energy can now create on other levels.

Along with death and the destruction of that which no longer serves, Pluto also brings rebirth.

So pay attention! This November 19, 2021 Full Moon Lunar Eclipse in late Taurus offers a preview of when the US Pluto Return goes exact on February 20, July 11, and December 28, 2022: a barren Crone finds new love.

As we watch the old world fall away, even the sky reminds us to prepare our hearts for something wonderful and new. Adding to the Plutonian signature of this eclipse, Pluto trines the Moon from Capricorn, the sign of tradition and “old structures and authority.” We can grieve how life has changed, but rebeginnings abound. Soften to receive what inevitable destruction has revealed.

In addition to trining the US Pluto Return point (exact within minutes), this eclipse also exactly quincunxes the Galactic Center — another mystical trigger for love and rebirth. Not just any old love and rebirth: this love and rebirth is galactic, central and primordial.

Dream Wisdom

For all the dreams I share on this blog, I have many thousands more. Sometimes these dreams come with elaborate plots and details. Other times, someone gives me a message, or I awake with a phrase or sentence in my head. This morning I was riding the exercise bike — where I often get waking downloads — and it occurred to me to share a few of the dream quotes. In no particular order:

“In perfect love and perfect trust, perfect timing is a must.”

“Delay leads to delight.”

“Wherever you are is where you live. Right here, now, you’re living, so this is where you live even if you’re only visiting.”

While biking, I started listening to Joseph Campbell’s The Hero with a Thousand Faces. I read this book in college and also watched the Bill Moyers interview series with Joseph Campbell, based on this book. I saw that series in the first few months after my 1998 traumatic brain injury, and it helped me view my entire recovery through the lens of hero’s journey and shamanic initiation. Now I have the book on Audible, and I love how much the narration makes the stories and dreams come alive.

Back in April 2019, I had an elaborate and life changing dream. At the end of the dream I met Joseph Campbell in the Meijer Sculpture Gardens. He gave me very personal advice, but he also said one other thing, which I could not for the life of me recall. It seemed important. This morning while biking, I heard Joseph Campbell (as the Audible reader) say:

“Birth is the only cure for death.”

I almost fell off the bike when I realized this is what he told me in that pivotal April 2019 dream. As the collective faces so much change and ongoing pressure to change, these dream memos seem helpful to share. Perhaps they’ll speak to you, as well.

Scenes from Sunday and Signs of a New Earth

I haven’t mentioned them in awhile, but my longstanding “life in death” dreams continue, with lots of waking life bleedthrough. I described some of these dreams in the Precognitive Blues series, and also mentioned them in a post called “Ringing in a New Decade and a New Earth,” alluding to my powerful experience in The Womb exhibit at Meijer Sculpture Gardens, which began a spontaneous ritual initiation for me on the Eve of Winter Solstice 2019.

On Sunday, David and I went to Lake Michigan for our fourth time out of the past five weekends — a welcome recharge of walking along the edge of and in the water, as well as sitting on an eroding sand dune of eerily upturned trees. The exposed roots form a kind of Otherworldly forest of open tunnels and hilly sand passages to get there. We like this area, because it’s quiet and somewhat secluded, with shade for fair skinned me. Here was our view to the left this past Sunday:

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On the way there, we stopped at Geoscape Rock Shop in Paw Paw, MI. David had seen a sign for it while out there for work one day. The outside of the shop features huge chunks of unusual landscaping rocks like sodalite, lepidolite, Mookaite (aka Australian jasper), lavender rose quartz, and more standard selections. Inside, they offered a large and varied collection of unusual items, including the Zebra Onyx Crystal Skull, pictured below.
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This jumped out at me because of the zebra and owl dream I described in the post Owls, Dragons and Zebra Elephants: when dreams spill into “real” life. To the right of these skulls, was a statue of two owls, which again echoed the two owls I was drawing at the end of that same dream:

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Peace … is Possible

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I wrote this post on 2/11/2014, and I’ve already reblogged it. Although slightly outdated with the references to melting starfish and toxic snow, the overall message holds true. Whatever your politics, whatever you THINK is going on in the world right now, it seems like a good time to remind everyone:

El Mundo Bueno

In Starhawk’s novel, The Fifth Sacred Thing, two vastly different worlds vie for control. In mundane terms: a utopian, earth-loving, community-oriented, individual honoring society that values freedom and the sacred fights for survival against corporate fascism, religious, financial, and soul oppression, hypocrisy, and the Police State — a culture’s unprocessed Shadow Side made manifest.

In magical realist terms:

“Doña Elena used to say that there was the Good Reality, El Mundo Bueno, literally the Good World, and the Bad Reality, El Mundo Malo, and they were always vying with each other. In the Good Reality you have a mild headache; in the Bad Reality you have a fatal brain disease. In the Good Reality, you catch hold of the rail as your foot slips; in the Bad Reality, you miss, slide down the stairs, and break your neck.

“We walk in the Good Reality as if we were treading the thin skin on warm milk. It’s always possible to break through and drown. …

“There is a hopeful side to Doña Elena’s teaching. … Even in El Mundo Malo, the Good Reality is always just on the other side of the surface of things. If you can learn to reach and pull yourself through, you can make miracles.” (Starhawk, The Fifth Sacred Thing, page 44)

When I first read these words, I immediately recognized their profound truth. I have witnessed this dynamic so many times during Medical Intuitive sessions when someone inquires about an intense physical issue that could go either way. In these cases, I explain that the outcome is not set: on one hand, those tumors could reveal themselves as stage 3 cancer and the person uses this illness as a rapid and socially acceptable way to “check out” of the misery they’ve been feeling without the stigma of suicide; on the other hand, the person could reach across the veil and reclaim all the reasons they want to live, all the goodness that longs to express itself through them. If they reach across that veil and pull themselves into the goodness, align themselves with that alternate reality, then the test will show those tumors to be benign or even non-existent. Continue reading

“Two Wise Women (Plus One…)” ~ Mia Feroleto hosts Ann Kreilkamp and me on her Podcast, New Observations

Mia Feroleto, Ann Kreilkamp and I had a three-way call in late March, talking about Coronavirus, healing practices, spirituality, uncertain times, and astrology. Our conversation clocked in at 1 hour 11 minutes. You can listen to it here.

Mastering Modern Midlife with Catherine Grace O’Connell and Laura Bruno

Today, I’m excited to share my one and only video interview. I love Catherine’s write up from her newsletter, which you can read here. You can watch this conversation on Facebook, Podbean, iTunes, or YouTube, which I’ll also embed below. We cover medical intuition, healing, Lyme disease, some of my personal story, plus an extra focus on Midlife, the healing power of creativity, and the North Nodes.

Catherine refers several times to our having recorded this interview twice, alluding to me being “a very high vibe being.” The story behind that is the reason this remains my one and only video interview. I’ve done many phone interviews, and I used to have many videos on YouTube until my channel got censored in 2011. However, I don’t do sessions or interviews via video or computer, because I have a history of blowing out nearby electronics. Doing an intuitive tune-in ramps up my energy in a big, sometimes explosive way, so I lobbied hard for using a landline on my end. I delayed too long, and Catherine and her business partner Mike stopped doing audio-only interviews. By the time we scheduled, it was video or nothing.

I warned them about my tendency to blow things out, and I surrounded my laptop with stacks of orgone pucks. I theorized that I should be OK as long as Catherine didn’t ask me to do an intuitive scan or anything too energy related in the interview. If we were just talking, and I was careful with my energy, then it should work. We had a great conversation the first time, but at one point, she asked me an intuitive question. I tuned in and when I looked directly into the camera, I blew out the equipment on their end, erasing half the interview. This had never happened before or since, and they use backup cameras and recording. It was all wiped.

Soooo, we re-recorded, and we ended up enjoying this conversation even more. You might notice me trying hard not to look too directly into the camera. If you know me in person, you’ll also notice my concerted effort in this interview not to talk with my hands. I know from Reiki classes that whoever’s in line of my right hand — the one that almost got struck by lightning — gets blasted with energy the entire class. I didn’t want to send that energy into the camera or laptop screen.

I tried so hard to keep my energy in check so we could have a successful recording this time, and it worked!

I’m sharing the behind the scenes details here, because some people ask for video sessions and may wonder if I can do a video interview, then why can’t I do a video session? Trust me, you get much better intuitive work from me when I’m not spending the bulk of my energy trying not to blow out your or my equipment! It really took a massive amount of concentration not to let too much energy spontaneously leap out.

That said, this was a super fun interview. I love how it showcases Catherine’s and my friendship, as well as the deep topics of healing and transformation we discuss. I hope you enjoy it as much as we did. Do check out her write up here. Also, just a reminder that my monthly North Node Horoscopes are available exclusively on Catherine’s site. We post those around the 22nd of each month, depending on when the Sun changes signs. Enjoy!

Time Dreams and a Podcast

I wanted to bring attention to Ann Kreilkamp’s ARKCroneCast Updates, her new podcast available to Patreon subscribers. The subscription levels are only $5, $10 or $20 per month, well worth it, imho. Ann brings over 40 years as an astrologer, plus 77 years of extraordinary living. I especially enjoyed her latest, Number 11, called “Trust.” She discusses this theme in context of Saturn and Pluto types of trust, and I found it perfectly synchronized with this morning’s dreams.

I left those dreams as a comment on her site, but I’ll share them here, too. I highly recommend this podcast to anyone feeling a huge disparity between right and left brain messages. I know many people keep receiving vivid dreams and visions that seem so real, yet so unrelated to current life circumstances. Ann’s podcast shares different levels of trust, and why this theme seems so “up” right now for so many. (Hint: Saturn and Pluto, though not exactly conjunct, remain super close in Capricorn.)

Anyway, here’s my comment, and here’s the link to CroneCast 11:

Great podcast!

Synchronously, before listening to this, two dreams this morning featured “Time” as a topic, including a wall of dozens of circular clocks, all synchronized, all being kept warm by a “hot plate wall” behind them. The message was one I keep getting, “high vibe and filled with life force energy,” a theme that keeps showing up in dreams about death, mud or dusty wreaths filled with seeds. This particular dream implied that we could “eat Time” and that this time banquet was being prepared and kept warm by amazing cosmic time chefs who knew exactly when and how to serve the right moments as a feast.

In the prior dream, I was in a clothing store, second story, somewhere in Idaho. The female clerk told me that in order to find what I wanted, I needed to cross the street. I went downstairs and began to cross the street, which turned into an intimidatingly wide street.

I crossed at a crosswalk, but the light went through several cycles as I made my way across the street. I was wearing high heeled, intricately carved wooden shoes, which I realized I could not continue to walk in. I took them off, and my bare feet couldn’t continue walking on this road, either. I was already in the middle of the road with cars on both sides. I dropped to my knees, kneeling, and “walking” on my knees across the street.

I worried that no one could see me so low to the ground, that I would get run over. Then I realized that none of the drivers of the cars seemed to notice the lights had changed. Time had either slowed down or stopped for them while I made my way — safely — across the street. When I arrived at the other store, traffic resumed. The store had exactly what I wanted, even though I didn’t know I was looking for it. I left wearing the new clothes.

I love your mantra at the end: “Let the tide carry me, whether it goes in or out.” I think I’ll adopt that one, too. So many Plutonian dreams this past few months! My goodness, it’s Pluto central … with Saturn thrown in trying to stop the tide. 🙂 Thank you.

Announcing a New Collaboration with Catherine Grace O’Connell!

I’m so excited to announce this long in the works collaboration with one of my favorite people on the planet, Catherine Grace O’Connell. I featured an interview with Catherine back in 2016, sharing her amazing recovery from Lyme Disease. She’s come so far since then, now a leader and inspiration for so many women in Midlife and beyond.

She began as a client, nearly at death’s door when we started working together. Catherine has since become a dear friend. We’ve talked about collaborating in some way since that interview in 2016, and everything came together for it to happen this year. New Year, New Decade!

I’ll be writing a monthly North Node Horoscopes column for her site and newsletter. Unlike typical Sun Sign Horoscopes, which rarely hit the mark, if you follow the path of your North Node, you’ll always hit your True North.

The column was Catherine’s idea, because my work around her Leo North Node proved so pivotal in her recovery and now career and life purpose. She wanted to share that with other women in a big way. (Her site is tailored to women, but many men read it, too. Catherine just feels a particular calling to help Midlife Women find themselves in a big way.) You can read Catherine’s vision and North Node story here.

We plan to release new scopes each month around the 22nd or so. We got them up that day, when the Moon just happened to cross my own North Node, but she planned a bigger launch today. I hope you enjoy this joint offering. If you’re not familiar with Catherine, you’re in for a treat. She combines beauty on the outside with fierce passion and beauty on the inside, inspiring people to transcend the life they were told to live … and instead, have courage to live the one they’re meant to live.

Big blessings and Happy Chinese New Year, too!

Dreams, Signs and Syncs, Plus … Astrobutterfly ~ The Astrology of 2020: A New Order

For those interested in a breakdown of the biggest astrological events of 2020, have a look at Astrobutterfly’s latest post, which you can find here.

On a personal note, I have to laugh, because yet again, these major events — especially the planets changing direction and the shift from Earth to Air energy — are hitting exact spots in both my natal and 9th Harmonic Charts. It’s getting uncanny, but at least it may explain why I’ve had such vivid dreams and why my waking life seems like a dream. In an email to my astrology mentor and friend Ann Krielkamp, today I wrote: Continue reading

Session Themes and Navigating this Potent Week of Energies

In recent months, but especially the last two weeks, I’ve noticed a major recurring theme in sessions. I thought I’d share a little of that theme here, since it seems to be somewhat of a collective process if so many individuals are going through it right now. I’ll also share links to some insightful articles about this week’s super intense events in the sky. This weekend brings a perfect storm of aspects all coming together … and yet these aspects continue to ricochet off past and future potent transits. In my own chart, these eclipses and mega-events hit majorly sensitive spots, so I’m not only observing effects in sessions and in the collective, but also very much in my inner and outer life.

Radical Vulnerability

One theme I continue to encounter is that of vulnerability. Specifically, life seems to be putting people into what would normally feel like a worst nightmare Catch-22: a situation in which the only way to survive, heal or succeed means exposing themselves in a nakedly vulnerable way. These people faced hurt in the past — deep wounds from trusting the wrong people, from being abused, or punished for seeming “weak.” They learned to shut down in order to protect themselves, and especially their hearts.

With Jupiter now opposing the North Node in Cancer, there’s a big (Jupiter) collective push to become more childlike (Cancer) and to allow someone else to care for us in a safe, heartfelt and grown up way. Re-parenting issues abound, and they’re prickly issues, because these people learned not to trust parents or authority figures. The risk feels even more difficult with a stellium of planets (Sun, Mercury, Jupiter, Saturn, Pluto) and the transiting South Node (past lives, old habits) in Capricorn right now. The dominant energy stands tall in Capricorn, sign of self-sufficiency ruled by stern patriarch Saturn. Yet the collective path forward (North Node) involves feeling, empathic, childlike, mothering and receptive to mothering Cancer.

For most of the people being called to vulnerability, “losing control” or “not having it together” is very scary.

I reminded two clients yesterday that “It takes a lot of courage to admit you’re terrified.” We all laughed, but recognized that truth. It’s OK to feel afraid. That’s part of the process. Courage is not living without fear. Courage comes from cœur — the French word for “heart.” Having courage means your heart feels enough love for others — and in this case, for yourself, for whatever you need — to face the fear and embrace the opportunities at hand.

Jupiter brings luck, truth, optimism and buoyant support. While life has forced people into this uncomfortable position of needing to embrace their own vulnerability — life has also brought just the right people together to make that happen. Whether through a doctor, therapist, friend, mentor, or new romance, people having their hearts cracked open are also finding just the right person or people to love and nurture their budding tenderness.

I keep seeing or hearing about this, over and over. It’s amazing how many people are going through this exact process right now. To me, it seems like part of the New Earth energies — a deep and powerful love frequency.

This process requires discernment. Unfortunately, not everyone is a safe person. If you’ve felt pushed in this direction, though, look deeper at the relationships in your life. See if you notice an obvious opening, even if it feels scary or bizarre to explore that possibility. Something seems to be orchestrating opportunities for increased tenderness and vulnerability. This new love frequency feels protective and regenerative. Considering all the other energies headed our way, having courage in this most personal area will make you stronger and better able to weather the storms.

The Big Astro Weather Week

Since many of the big fireworks this coming weekend involve long cycled planets, we’ve already been living with some of these energies for a long time. I mentioned some key events in my Happy Solstice, Happy Anniversary, Happy Holidays, and Merry Christmas Eclipse post. The December 25th/26th eclipse links into this weekend and will continue to play out over the coming weeks and months. A brief listing of coming attractions follows:

Wednesday, January 8th: Jupiter exactly conjunct the South Node at 8° Capricorn

Friday, January 10th: Full Moon Lunar Eclipse at 20° Cancer with a tightly packed Sun, Mercury, Saturn and Pluto all in 20-22° Capricorn. As Pam Younghans notes, this Full Moon Lunar Eclipse also involves Ceres (21° Capricorn) and Chariklo (24° Capricorn), bringing a feminine energy to that potent stellium. In addition, Juno (the faithful wife) sits at 19° Libra, and Eris (the scorned Goddess) at 23° Aries, both squared by those opposing energies in Cancer and Capricorn.

The Trans-Neptunian-Object known as Arawn — named after the Welsh God of the Underworld — also rules at 20° Capricorn right now. Arawn amplifies both the Saturnian and Plutonian energies, exponentially amplifying the Capricorn energy face-off with the Cancer Full Moon. The 12/12/19 Full Moon was intense, but this one feels out of this world.

Saturday, January 10th or 11th (depending on time zone): Uranus stations direct at 2°37′ Taurus. Uranus went retrograde on August 11, 2019. The Rx motion tones down the Uranian urge to kick out the jambs, rabble rouse, rebel and liberate. When an outer planet stations direct, its power amplifies, especially at the point of shift. I’ve shared lots of writing about Uranus in Taurus, and we can expect this shift to encapsulate and liberate those energies.

Sunday, January 12th: Saturn exactly conjuncts Pluto for the one and only time at 22°46′ Capricorn. This is a hugely big deal. Saturn only conjuncts Pluto once every 35-40 years, and not always in the same sign. To have this conjunction occur right on the heels of a powerful Lunar Eclipse and Uranus stationing direct brings so many planets, points and objects together it’s like Rachmaninoff in the skies.

If you’d like more details on the coming transits, I recommend:

Pam Younghan’s North Point Astrology Journal: Your Guide to Planetary Energies January 6-12, 2020

Astro Butterfly’s The Astrology of January 2020 — Saturn Conjunct Pluto in Capricorn

On a Personal Note:

These transits keep dogging me! To explain all the ways these cosmic events keep triggering precise and super sensitive spots in my chart would sound too technical and boring to most. Suffice to say, I’m not just empathing the collective and my clients’ experiences. I’m getting loads of exact hits on both my natal and 9th Harmonic charts. It’s kind of mind boggling, but at least it explains why for years, I’ve viewed this time period through 2025 as pivotal for me. I always link into the collective in very personal micro/macro ways, so I’m curious to see how it all plays out.

If you’ve not read Ringing in a New Decade and a New Earth, that gives more of a dreamlike overview of the coming energies. I told a client yesterday that I feel an excited sense of dread — kind of like approaching the peak of a very high and windy rollercoaster. How fast and wild will it go? Will destiny’s force feel exhilarating and/or terrifying? We live in exciting and interesting times.

If you’re not one for Rachmaninoff, you might like this Melody Sheep version of Bill Hicks and George Carlin. One of my favorites!

Blessed Be … and be the blessing.