Posts Tagged ‘Present Moment’

Being fully present: first she placed her hand on the gunman’s heart

Wow, thanks to my friend, fellow permaculturist, and astrology mentor Ann Kreilkamp and her friend Julia for this amazing story. Definitely worth the click through to the full LA Times article:

What can — and did, on this occasion — happen when humans drop their masks to fully encounter the humanity of the Other. From the LA Times. Thanks to my dear friend Julia for this find.  

The tender, terrifying truth about what happened inside Trader Joe’s hostage siege

In Case You Wondered … Yes, the Energies Have Been Intense!

I keep getting emails, questions in sessions, and private texts from clients, friends and family asking me what the heck is up with the recent energies. Yes, they have been VERY intense! Some people have been using these energies as rocket fuel for positive changes. Others have felt overwhelmed by sudden health crises, major relationship flare-ups, mandatory evacuations, and “out of the blue” switcheroo’s.

I personally am doing very well, with lots of super synchronous opportunities appearing and requiring openness and readiness for change. I know many people have had their worlds rocked in the past two weeks, though, because I’ve heard about it in sessions. I coach a number of therapists, and they also noted a major uptick in crises, emotional outbursts and addictive relapses, especially since Easter. It feels like a big cleanse, in which the old gunk temporarily recirculates before its full release. It also feels like a time to go inward, and many people feel they simply cannot maintain the external obligations of a previous status quo.

Although my own life is going well, I had not one, but two, family emergencies last week, plus an onslaught of panicked correspondence from various people. To summarize, we’ve got four planets in Retrograde right now, including Mercury. You can find ways of dealing with Merc Rx by clicking here. Since April 9, Saturn, the cosmic task master, is moving Retrograde at the Galactic Center until August 25th, and we’ve got all manner of collective machinations ranging from civil unrest to World War 3. If you’re at all empathic or even the slightest bit conscious, such things exert influence on your life. The trick is to observe, consider (or reconsider) your options, and then commit (or recommit) to whatever makes your soul sing.

It really can be that simple. What step, right now, feels right in your gut? What brings surprising relief whenever you consider it? What choice, right now, supports those deep inner longings and desires that never seem to go away? What action, right now, aligns you with your path? With all these planets Rx, keep in mind that the next step might be a step backwards — a time to clean up, clear out, or review. If you cannot pass Go without taking this step, then stop resisting it. Use these strong Rx energies to focus on what demands attention before moving forward.

When choppy waves appear, we can drown or learn to ride them. We can throw ourselves to the sharks, or find our balance and glide with exhilaration. This is not a time for indecision; it’s a time for extreme presence, moment by moment. If you can’t make out the bigger picture, that’s fine. Just get clear on how you’d like to feel and then make micro-adjustments throughout the day to edge you closer to that feeling.

If you’d like extra support, please don’t hesitate to request a session. Big waves=big potential for lasting change.

Surf’s up, Lovey’s! Hang ten.

Integration Lifetimes and the Splitting of the Worlds

I keep thinking about Inelia Benz’s recent post, “The Splitting of the Worlds –Coming to a planet near You!” , urging people to consider an option besides simple light or dark … positive or negative. According to Inelia — and I had previously written about this, too:

“The physical separation is really up on the human collective mind right now. I would say, for now, just observe it.

“As I observe it, and this is something that is coming out in the Interview with a Psychic Assassin book, there is a third option manifesting. It’s is so outside of our reality scale that it needs to be observed.

“Basically, light and dark can and do exist without the other. In fact, that’s the only way they can exist. We can see both because there is both existing separately from each other in our world. There is also a reality where neither exists.

“And something that is just appearing in our awareness, is a reality where they both exist as One. Not light and dark making grey, but making a color that is not in our spectrum. Not a reality where they neutralize or mesh, but where a new element emerges.”

This third option has the potential to transcend the duality and extremes currently thrashing collective consensus reality. It’s akin to what I’ve called an “Integration Lifetime,” in which the goal isn’t fixing a single relationship or issue, or succeeding at a particular career, or evening the score; no, it’s much more complicated and yet infinitely simpler than all that! Integration Lifetimes (and there are millions here living them right now in microcosm of larger processes on our planet) aim to reclaim all the disparate facets of our multi-dimensional beings and empower ourselves to live and be in the world but not of it. Even that phrase fails to reflect all the subtleties of an Integration Lifetime, because once you find that new set point and way of being, you can suddenly afford to be “of” the world, too. The weight of the world won’t weigh you down.

The integration process begins with dis-integration, which is why I encounter so many of you as Medical Intuitive clients! Life falls apart in ways that prohibit you from using bandaids, splints and crutches as permanent cures. After the dis-integration comes a period of the Void. You’ve lost everything you thought you knew and were, but you can’t see or feel or know what’s coming, because “it” remains so far off your radar that you miss “it,” even when “it” begins to permeate your being. The Void can last awhile. However long it lasts, it feels uncomfortable. The sooner you embrace that discomfort of uncertainty, the sooner you notice something massive, healing and deeply nourishing moving through your life. It seems murky at first, hidden in the shadows, and in fact, Shadow Work becomes an important part of moving from the Void into the New.

Shadow Work requires great courage and fortitude, but it offers great rewards, as well. You begin to recognize the eternal parts of yourself, even as you catch flickers of new versions of you that look and feel vaguely familiar, yet somehow more whole, grounded and vast. For some people who tend to live very multi-dimensionally, such integration can even include making peace with linear time and the rational mind. For most people, it requires exploring (and sometimes even mastering) the concepts, ideas and skills that you find scary and repulsive. It’s not about right/left or right/wrong. Nor is it just a blob of formless, mindless goo. Real integration is about options, choices and responsible co-creation.

Most teachings on the Law of Attraction suggest that we must only focus on that which we desire, so that we don’t send ourselves into the downward spiral of “miscreation.” Although it sounds good to focus only on the positive and that which we do want, it actually takes tremendous energy and mental gymnastics to attempt to ignore things we’d rather not experience. The tricky part is that not everyone’s living in the same type of incarnation. People on a “regular” lifetime can leave their Shadows for dealing with another time. People here on Integration Lifetimes, by contrast, find that when they ignore Shadows, the Shadows get bigger, more threatening, and scream for more and more attention.

As a Medical Intuitive, I see so much of this dynamic play out in complex, chronic health crises, especially Lyme Disease, brain injury, Chronic Fatigue Syndrome, endocrine disruption, and various autoimmune conditions. These sorts of conditions can easily become a game of whack-a-mole, which so perfectly mirrors the larger world right now with its myriad crises and intertwining rabbit holes. Just when you think you’ve gotten a handle on one symptom or corrupt group, another three blindside you — screaming even louder for attention. Most days during the week, I speak with at least one, sometimes several people who confess that they are paralyzed by the fear of death. Sometimes it’s the fear of suffering. Sometimes the fear that this current symptom or situation “will never go away.” Not just mild anxiety. We’re talking paralyzing, white knuckled, raw FEAR.

For people on an Integration Lifetime, positive affirmations rarely work, and — even more frustrating — these folks have usually done a lot of spiritual growth work, plus extensive study of natural and energetic healing, Law of Attraction, metaphysics, Ancient Traditions, science, art and more. They look around at people far less aware having far fewer and less intense issues, and they begin to judge themselves for “being a fraud” or “flaky” or “self-sabotaging.” Meanwhile, such judgment exponentially fortifies the blocks against healing and integration! Someone not on an Integration Lifetime reading a bunch of Hay House books might find that material life changing, because they’re encountering new material. But few things feel new to those on an Integration Lifetime. This sense of world weariness extends even into alternative spiritual and healing realms. These souls might feel initial resonance but then quickly return to feeling bored or disjointed — huge levels of awareness coupled with seemingly disproportionate 3D problems.

The worst thing you can do on an Integration Lifetime is try to make yourself conform to “normal” expectations and compare yourself to people not on an Integration Lifetime! Doing so will add to your confusion, because not everyone thriving on Hay House, yoga and Law of Attraction is on an Integration Lifetime! They might be great people with a lot to offer the world; they might be on a fast track to spiritual growth and development; but if they’re not on an Integration Lifetime, then don’t be surprised when their “sure fire” methods backfire for you.

This dynamic has implications for collective consensus reality and splitting timelines, too, bringing us back to Inelia’s comments: “And something that is just appearing in our awareness, is a reality where they both exist as One. Not light and dark making grey, but making a color that is not in our spectrum. Not a reality where they neutralize or mesh, but where a new element emerges.

“The urge to separate to different realities seems to be somehow related to the emergence of this new vibration. It is almost like if we don’t separate now, we will be all gobbled up into the new element and that is so unknown, so different, so ‘not human’ that we are pushing our choice hard now.”

The challenge for those on an Integration Lifetime is that “healed” does not mean “returning to the way things were.” No model exists for the new version of you, because you haven’t yet given birth to it. In the same way a child hides in the mother’s womb, this new version of you hasn’t yet seen the light of (any) day. It’s a new Creation, still nebulous in the realm of pure potential. We are in times of tremendous choice right now, and the type of lifetime you’re on largely influences what choices your soul will find most satisfying. The urge to split — although a strong one — also feels a bit “been there, done that” to those on Integration Lifetimes. To those younger souls just discovering things like the Law of Attraction and Reality Creation, splitting the worlds into light and dark, positive and negative seems like a fabulous opportunity. Even those on an Integration Lifetime might sometimes fantasize about living in the land of lollipops and gumdrops. Organic and sugar-free, of course! 😉 But ultimately, those on an Integration Lifetime would find themselves bored with that scenario, in the same way that people who’ve gone through a major life transition find old parts of their life feel too small or “flat.”

Healing for those on an Integration Lifetime is not so much about removal, as it is about conscious Creation. Sometimes Creation involves a carving away — like sculpting — but that carving away does not become an end in itself. Rather, the carving away exists as a step, perhaps many, many steps, in service to a greater vision, inspiration and spontaneous engagement with the material. Carving reveals Shadows, as greater depth encourages the play of light and dark, but the whole of Creation eventually reveals itself as far more than the sum of its individual cuts. An artist adds something with each taking away, infusing the Creation with life force energy until that Creation can hold its own.

I believe the third option of which Inelia speaks has begun to hint at its arrival, because enough people on Integration Lifetimes have come far enough on their individual journeys to open space for something beyond the Void. Old tugs to the familiar remain, but continued Shadow Work coupled with active, conscious Creation in both the imagination and in tangible ways — will continue to gestate this new option until the birthing time.

Different people engage Shadows in different ways. My dear friend and sweet faery twin, Tania Marie prefers not to work as an activist exposing wrongs or fighting for rights, but she’s got a body full of extremely potent, powerful, deliberate, beautiful and what some people have even called “scary” tattoos. She’s got a dragon, snakes, and jaguars, occult symbols, Moon goddesses, and ancient languages all in black, black, black ink all over her body. That’s a lot of intensity, money and pain, which she wears in indelible ink as an unapologetic reclamation of the power, Shadow projections, and often corrupted goodness attached to all these things. Embodying the Shadow literally on her body allows Tania to live her life with innocence and childlike wonder while still honoring the vastness and power of her being. Her book, Spiritual Skin, helps others to explore a similar path.

Tattoos are widely popular right now, but not for everyone. Some people invoke and integrate their Shadows by embracing whatever taboos have most defined their lives. Others move through various Archetypes and roles. Others attract life threatening illness or injury, which makes them reconcile with their own mortality. Since we all die at some point, this last version of Shadow Work opens itself to everyone — even those not on a full Integration Lifetime. Inelia has noted that “Gaia (Earth/Terra) has actively been pushing for a physical separation that is done through time, three generations, and is trauma free and gentle.” Those on Integration Lifetimes tend to feel deeply connected to Terra and tend to be the ones walking a fine line with awareness of this unsustainable civilization and way of life crumbling to its core (scary Shadow stuff!) and the joy, freedom and excitement of creating and welcoming the new.

As more and more Integration Lifetime folks move through their own process of dis-integration and learning to accept the Void, the human frequency on this planet continues to rise and offer encouragement for entirely new ways of being. We can reclaim the best of the old and the new, while consciously finding ways to integrate the pain, darkness and fear boiling to the surface of collective consensus reality. Energy adepts know that energy is energy, so we can mitigate the need for drastic physical events like pandemics and devastating tsunamis by exploring their energy signatures and finding different ways to rearrange and morph the energy. Kind of like radical feng shui!

Those who’ve already journeyed through the Void might find their skills and experiences increasingly welcomed as we redecorate and remodel reality, as the awakening masses begin to ask, “OK, we see it, but what the heck are we supposed to do with all this stuff????” The splitting of the worlds option gets rid of it, along with a whole lot of the material world. The integration option might involve some decluttering, but it doesn’t necessarily mean gutting. Think “re-purposing” or making art from junk, beauty from the discordant, healing from pain. The collective has not decided on a path yet, but individuals will each make their own choice. Collective consensus reality just means the tipping point of people with relatively aligned choices. If you suspect you’re on an Integration Lifetime and have been hammering the “positive” button, I’d simply encourage you to use this time delay to make sure you won’t be bored with your selection. Red pill, blue pill. Why take any pill? Or maybe you want a purple one. Maybe you want a world beyond pills.

Collectively, we’re in the Void right now, which means we wait. We can drive ourselves crazy with the waiting game, or we can use the extra linear time to explore and begin to create all sorts of worlds before we fully move into the new. You know what they say: “Yesterday is history, tomorrow’s a mystery, but today’s a gift. That’s why they call it ‘the present.'” I’ll repost Joanna Macy’s wonderful talk on the gift of Uncertainty and wish you many blessings:

Alan Watts: “So, cheer up! You can’t blame anyone else for the world you live in.”

Thanks to Ann at expermaculture for this one:

Hurry Up and Wait

“Hurry up and wait” describes so much of the energy these days, especially for people conscious enough to notice energetic waves. Solar flares, whistleblowers, 2012 prophecies, Disclosure, and economic “emergencies”: take your pick. We feel the urgency, the “imminent” changes, and yet life rolls on with very little altered day-to-day. Are we in a full-on economic emergency? Or is the New Economy simply emerging? Think “both/and” rather than either/or, and then prepare to hurry up and wait again.

This cycle of intense hope, radical change, and Spidey-sense tingling anticipation feels almost too much to bear — kind of like later seasons of “LOST.” We see the signs (or are they signs?); we feel like somewhere something must make sense (or did we imagine those connections? Is Ben Linus manipulating us?); we wonder which wolves will turn into sheep, and which sheep will bare their bloody canines, all the while trying to remind ourselves that in a truly enlightened world, we need not fear.

With all this suspense, we run the risk of missing out on the ever-present Now. In an age where time may completely collapse inside itself, might we not want to savor these last linear delays? They say a watched pot never boils, but this one will. It absolutely will boil. And soon. The energy has grown far too intense to simmer down. But do we want to spend all our time and energy watching an inevitably boiling pot? How might we better use this time to align ourselves with those bubbling opportunities? I’ve got a few ideas:

1) Allow yourself to feel the relief. As often as you can muster it, invite the feeling of relief into your experience. If you catch yourself saying, “Be rational. That’s only wishful thinking. I’ve got bills to pay and lack is ever present in my life,” cancel that thought! This kind of thinking turns your burner back on low. How do you expect to boil water over a diminished flame? Indulging in feelings of relief beckons relieving circumstances to you. Imagine the ease of total debt relief and the freedom to pursue your passion instead of just a paycheck. If your pot hasn’t started boiling yet, you can still taste the contents without burning your tongue. Observe the flavor of your creation and tweak the seasonings while you can.

2) Follow the Golden Rule. “Do unto others as you would have them do unto you.” Practice random acts of kindness. Pick up litter. Share your bumper crop. Hug a tree. Smile: it’s contagious! Yes, CDC, that’s my kind of an epidemic. 😉

3) Speak the Truth in Love. We live in a brainwashed society whose sleeping members have begun to stir. Very soon, we will have millions of shocked Rip Van Winkles feeling emotions and awareness that BigPharma, tell-LIE-vision, and GMO foods used to dumb down. Tempting as an “I told you so” may be, we can finally look forward to some real conversations. You might want to spend some time releasing old resentments about people not believing you. When the TV programming changes, these same people will want to discuss their rapidly changing world view. As someone who has already gone through some of your own awakening process, you know this territory. You can guide gently and with love down paths you’ve already walked. Do you need to rub it in that you got here first, or can you celebrate your ability to help others enjoy their journey?

4) Follow the Usui Reiki Principles. Reiki (pronounced ray-key) is an ancient healing method rediscovered in the 19th century by the Japanese monk Dr. Mikao Usui. Reiki means “Universal Life Force Energy” or “Divinely directed healing energy.” It flows through everyone and everything, balancing and healing as it goes. Reiki pracitioners and Reiki Master Teachers know special techniques and hand positions, but as Earth’s frequency rises, Reiki will become more accessible to everyone.

Before Usui started giving Reiki attunements, he had his students follow him around a clinic and observe his energy. He also required them to recite the following principles in order to re-align themselves with the Universal Life Force Energy. Whether or not you know Reiki, you can embrace these principles for a more harmonious life right now. The following version is based on various translations and much study of Reiki and Dr. Usui’s Original Reiki Ideals:

The secret method for inviting happiness
The miracle medicine for all diseases
Just for today, do not be angry.
Just for today, do not worry.
Express your gratitude.
Devote yourself to your life’s work,
And be kind to every being.

5) Practice Makes Perfect (or at least Much Better). The more we practice harmonious living, the more our subconscious mind makes it so. The good things in life manifest much easier as we allow ourselves to align with relief, the Golden Rule, Truth, Love and the natural flow of healing energy. I encourage all of us to practice these things, “just for today.” We can get angry, worried, frustrated and all those other things tomorrow:

“To-morrow, and to-morrow, and to-morrow,
Creeps in this petty pace from day to day,
To the last syllable of recorded time;
And all our yesterdays have lighted fools
The way to dusty death. Out, out, brief candle!
Life’s but a walking shadow, a poor player,
That struts and frets his hour upon the stage,
And then is heard no more. It is a tale
Told by an idiot, full of sound and fury,
Signifying nothing.”

Sure, we can choose to be Macbeth’s, but in a world of all possibilities why would we ever choose that?

So, yes, “hurry up and wait” seems like the order of the day. But while we’re waiting, why not savor the stew, smell the roses, paint a picture, write a masterpiece, make a snack, make a new friend, or make sweet love? Why not live out loud? We don’t need to wait on the world in order to do that. If I’m alive enough to type, and you’re alive enough to read, then we’re both alive enough to enjoy ourselves. I’m telling you, that pot’s inevitably gonna boil.

So what Now?