Posts Tagged ‘Judgment’

Letting Go of Should’s

Today is one of those days. Perhaps you’re feeling it, too. Maybe, as usual, I’m feeling it a bit ahead of the clients and students I’ll be helping through this phase when it hits more of the Lightworker crowd. In any case, I’m feeling it — that “Really?! You have got to be kidding me that this is even still an issue” feeling — sometimes inside of me and sometimes reflected back in naive, yet predictable ebbs and flows into duality by people who “should” really know better.

Ah, the should’s! What good do they ever do anyone? The angry should’s easily get shushed into more focused positive action, but the sad, shaking my head should’s? For some reason, those feel more difficult to release. And so I ask myself again, “What good is a should?” To my surprise, my very own inner Dr. Seuss responds:

A should would be good,
But it can’t so it shan’t.
Would, yes we would,
That our should’s
Could be good,
But they slog in the muck
And they feel oh so yuck.
Just leave them alone,
Go out on your own.
Who cares if that swan is a duck?

My apologies to the good doctor, whose real prescriptions do seem to work:

“Sometimes the questions are complicated and the answers are simple.”

“I have heard there are troubles of more than one kind. Some come from ahead and some come from behind. But I’ve bought a big bat. I’m all ready you see. Now my troubles are going to have troubles with me!”

“Today you are You, that is truer than true. There is no one alive who is Youer than You.”

“It’s a troublesome world. All the people who’re in it are troubled with troubles almost every minute. You ought to be thankful, a whole heaping lot,for the places and people you’re lucky you’re not.”

“Why fit in when you were born to stand out?”

“I like nonsense, it wakes up the brain cells. Fantasy is a necessary ingredient in living, It’s a way of looking at life through the wrong end of a telescope. Which is what I do, And that enables you to laugh at life’s realities.”

Thanks, Dr. Seuss, I will take these six and call you in the morning. And as for this: “Unless someone like you cares a whole awful lot, nothing is going to get better. It’s not.” … for today, I will simply assert: “In my world, everyone’s a pony and they all eat rainbows and poop butterflies!”

Much better! I think those should’s just pooped out with the butterflies, and butterflies are free.

Chaos and the Dancing Star

Whew! These solar flares are really digging up some old stuff, or at least … something is. I keep hearing from friends and clients that issues they thought they had long left behind have recently demanded further attention. In my own life, I’ve spent the past couple weeks alternately in joy, excitement, and expansion, with the occasional, “What the??? Where did that come from?” Of course, my ego reminds me exactly where that came from, and exactly why “those feelings are completely justified and even mild, given the actual circumstances.” If I still lived from that ego space, I could totally indulge in a negativity bender that would turn me off track and into a default, hell on Earth reality. That sounds extreme, and yet, we live in extreme and interesting times.

In a world so full of chaotic timelines dancing like the stars, vying for a chance to become “real,” our thoughts and emotions matter on a grand scale. That sentence just got away from me. Now that I reread it, the English Major in me feels compelled to break it down. First of all, that’s how I see timelines right now, as dancing stars, which of course, reminds me of my favorite quote by Nietzsche: “You must have chaos within you to give birth to a dancing star.” Chaos within, chaos without.

Yep, we’ve got chaos these days, and it plays out as a huge variety of potential collective timelines. In the past, very few people knew about conscious reality creation. That information remained the secret tool of a self-proclaimed “elite,” who focused, obsessed, performed rituals, co-opted politics, the media, food, and energy industries, and manipulated the vibration of everyone around them, so that they and only they could control what happened. As more people have begun to wake up, and as teachers like Dr. Joseph Murphy, Abraham-Hicks and others have begun to reveal how co-creation happens, way more people actively participate in reality creation. Before, we had the elite’s preferred (bizarrely destructive and exclusive) timeline and the masses accepting a (disempowering, enslaved and confusing) default reality. Now, we have unexplored galaxies of timelines: roiling and churning with the dominant vibrational waves of the collective.

In the ripple effects of a Big Bang, which waves do we choose to surf? Which ones will carry us to a distant shore? Which waves crash into other waves to create a vastly different trajectory? Which waves do we realize, mid-journey, really don’t feel right anymore? Can we imagine a more preferable wave (timeline) and hop on? The cool thing about chaos is that waves that might otherwise not have touched, can suddenly tumble into close proximity. With focus and intent, we can easily hop from wave to wave. We can make sudden leaps whose final trajectory goes somewhere far, far away from the initial wave we conjured up in our imaginary Big Bang cry for change. We determine whether our individual (and to some extent our collective reality) looks like a prison planet or Heaven on Earth: the more people vibing with love, joy, freedom, peace and responsible co-creation, the more of those things we find in our world.

But back to that sentence: In a world so full of chaotic timelines dancing like stars, vying for a chance to become “real,” our thoughts and emotions matter on a grand scale. Yes, our thoughts and emotions matter; they literally become matter. In all this chaotic dancing of stars and timelines, certain energies will take form. We can direct that materialization with our Will, with disciplined thoughts and emotions. When less desired thought patterns or negative emotions surface, we can notice these and look for lessons. Curiosity shifts energy from victimization, judgment and suppression to a more expansive and optimistic vibe. If we want to create a New Earth, then how we respond to our own inner process affects the Earth we build.

Shooting down negativity feels like repression. Do we want to create that? On the other hand, wallowing in that negativity feels disempowered. Do we really want to continue the victim-abuser-savior paradigm? Finding the lesson and forgiving the entire relationship and situation frees us to return to our preferred reality creation — kind of like an artist taking a moment to pay a bill or go to the bathroom, then returning to that incredible canvas! We can get upset about having to pay the bill or pee, or we can just get the job done, so that we can get back to creating what looks so beautiful and feels soooo good.

In a world so full of chaotic timelines dancing like the stars, vying for a chance to become “real,” our thoughts and emotions matter on a grand scale. And now for the toughest part, at least for me this week (and I wrote that at 777 words — “777: You are definitely on the right path in every area of your life. Stay balanced and spiritually aware so that you can continue moving forward on this illuminated path.” DV’s Angel Numbers 101). “On a grand scale.” Judgment. “The measure you give will be the measure you get.” “Forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors.” In light of the supposedly imminent arrests and prosecution of so many NWO cronies, part of me sounds just as bad as the NDAA, the Enemy Expatriation Act, and H.R. 347. I don’t feel proud of that judgment; it’s not my dominant intent or vibration. But it’s there.

If I allow myself to get worked up about living in a police state, I notice my ego becoming even more draconian. I start wondering about those people who took advantage of me when I had a brain injury; or the self-proclaimed “helpful” people who’ve tried to claim my talents and money as their own; negative people I know who play the victim only so they can continue to abuse others without challenge. I start wondering, “Will those people Ascend to the New Earth?” And … if I let my ego have it’s say, I think, “Well, God, I sure hope not! Because in my New Earth, that’s not allowed. Those people can just stay here on the old Earth. It’ll serve them right.” Eeegads! My ego sounds like a Right Wing Christian Fundamentalist! At this point, I tell that ego to go take a bath, preferably with sea salt and some relaxing essential oils. Or a walk in nature, where the giant trees can awe this tiny Napoleon back into silence. I remind myself:

“I know what I choose to co-create. I also know that we can’t make anyone else choose what we believe is the best reality. It’s an individual thing, a vibrational thing, and it really makes no difference to me whether Barack Obama, questionable Lightworkers, the Galactic Federation, or ancient Lemurians wind up in my reality, so long as that reality includes love, light, freedom, joy, and responsible co-creation. I am not ‘the grand scale.’ Getting all wrapped up in judgment, tempting though that is, creates an awful lot of ties to ‘what is.’ I feel far more excited about what is coming and about becoming those changes as much as possible. I don’t choose to live in a police state, so, while I have my preferences for how things shift, I will not get attached to the exact how’s and the absolute need to punish every single person who has ever done anything not of the light. That would pretty much BE a police state. I just choose to focus on what I want as I know that creates and attracts more of those things.”

Once I reaffirm those beliefs and intentions, my ego shuts up. Not in shame, but definitely with some long overdue humility. Hey, ego! I’ve got it covered. Thanks for playing, but I’ll take it from here. Why don’t you go balance my checkbook or play with some mineral makeup? It’ll be fun for you, and then I can get back to this glorious creation. Don’t worry, ego. I’ll keep loving you into Light as I birth my dancing star. I already feel the contractions, and this promises to be one orgasmic birth!