Posts Tagged ‘Forgiveness and Healing’

A Beautiful Ceremony

Whatever happens with Standing Rock — whether the stay on DAPL construction remains halted or requires more resistance — this is a beautiful reconciliation, forgiveness and a return to the original sacred status of the Warrior. In addition to bringing veterans and natives together, Standing Rock has also united indigenous tribes from all over the world. More of this kind of powerful healing, please!

I was unable to embed the video of the ceremony, but you can watch it here. If you let it play, you’ll also see/hear Wesley Clark, Jr. ask for forgiveness from Leonard Crow. You can hear commentary immediately after the veterans’ forgiveness ceremony by clicking here.

For those who have not read my Water Prayer, I continue to intend this blessing and protection at Standing Rock and anywhere the Mighty Element of Water flows. May we hold strong in our love for Mother Earth and each other.

Blessed Be.

Global and Personal Ho’oponopono

I’ve been working on The Forgiveness Experiment since early November 2011. Seeking global debt forgiveness and attempting to find relief and freedom from the deeply embedded narcissist structures of our culture, I began looking towards a “forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors” solution.

I’ve experienced some success with the experiment; however, I keep getting stuck on that whole “turn the other cheek” thing. It appears that the majorly destructive characters of our world have thrived on the masses and individuals looking away from systemic corruption and continuing to present themselves for yet another slap in the face. How many more quasi-secret bank bailouts will American taxpayers subsidize? Do those little wrist slaps of pennies on the dollar fines provide any incentive at all to change? And what about those individuals who continue to prey off unsuspecting Lightworkers and people with good hearts but poor discernment? Does turning the other cheek do anything at all to curb those abuses?

I’ve spent over six months doing my own intensive Shadow Work, as well as facilitating that for others through Past Life Readings and Shadow Work Tarot sessions. My inner world and that of my clients has definitely shifted, and our outer world does seem to be bringing greater accountability to parasites, war criminals and pathological narcissists. As within, so without. When we heal our own Shadow Side, we don’t need external reminders to look at it.

Still, I look at the world, and it’s clear we haven’t moved fully beyond the old paradigm. Those we would remove from our lives have a funny way of fighting to remain, even if they don’t actually like us. David reminded me yesterday of a book called, “I Hate You, Don’t Leave Me,” which deals with Borderline Personality Disorder, but the title strikes me as apt for our times. The NWO control freaks in our midst — the ones plotting massive depopulation schemes — are terrified that we’ll all start singing “I Will Survive”:

“At first, I was afraid, I was petrified
Kept thinking I could never live without you by my side
But then I spent so many nights thinking, how you did me wrong
And I grew strong and I learned how to get along

“Go on now, go, walk out the door, just turn around now,
Cause you’re not welcome anymore
Weren’t you the one who tried to hurt me with Goodbye?
Did you think I’d crumble? Did you think I’d lay down and die?”

Hell hath no fury like a woman scorned by a narcissist, although the wrath and outrage felt by 99% humanity realizing how long and how far they’ve been abused may come close. Psychologists speculate that Adolf Hitler may have suffered from Borderline Personality Disorder. Many dictators and “corporate persons” are narcissists. So many of the rulers and “leaders” of our world present varying degrees of sociopathic and psychopathic behavior patterns — with globally destructive effects. David B. Schwartz’s The Rise of the Second String Psychopaths explores the psychological sickness of American political puppeteers and their enablers, but this article could easily describe the world at large. Whether global or personal, those impacted by first or second-string psychopaths often spend years, decades or even lifetimes reeling from the results.

But who the heck wants to deal with this stuff anymore? Around the world, the cheek turners have begun to stare fear and abuse right back in the face. In return, the psychopaths who would like to remain in control have stocked up on ammo, drones, and nuclear weapons to use against “the useless eaters.” I Hate You, Don’t Leave Me!!! On the personal level, as Lightworkers have begun to take back their power, the energy vampires have grown more desperate for a fix. Lightworkers and Light Warriors have grown stronger, with brighter light and massive influxes of positive energy, but those people so out of touch with their own inner Light feel darker and darker. And when people feel disconnected from Source — un-enlightened — and desperate, they often lash out even more, which leads to more need to forgive.

Railing against these people or institutions, unfortunately, locks them into our vibration. We really can’t move on, individually or collectively, if we continue to feel stuck to old resentments. On the other hand, we don’t want to lie back and take it anymore. Besides, lying back and taking it, turning the other cheek … those old ways haven’t exactly worked. I talk a lot about “being the change” we wish to see. Ghandi had it right. I would love nothing more than for all the crazies running our world to come clean, beg for forgiveness and enter some kind of ongoing soul rehabilitation center. I would love to hear sincere apologies from those people whose actions still leave me shaking my head going, “Really?! Seriously, how do you live with yourself? How can you just keep repeating these exact same behaviors when you’ve been told and shown repeatedly what kind of damage you leave in your wake? Wouldn’t it feel better to come clean?”

A few weeks ago, I applied the Ghandi idea of becoming the change I wish to see in the world and started asking for forgiveness from those people I’ve been trying to forgive. I don’t contact them directly,but I started doing the ancient Hawaiian practice of reconciliation and forgiveness called Ho’oponopono, directing these words towards those I would like to forgive:

“I love you.
I’m sorry.
Please forgive me.
Thank you.”

A few rounds of that launch me deeper into my heart than I have ever comfortably remained — even though I do spend a lot of time in my heart. The words become a mantra and carry their own vibration, which seems to heal the angry spots inside. They also help to recognize even more of those Shadow Sides in which we have tangoed with the “Other” and hurt them and ourselves. In recognizing our own role in the victim/abuser/savior dance, we reclaim both our energy and our power. Those sticky relationships no longer tear at our inner peace like Velcro.

This practice has yielded such deep results in all my personal relationships that I started practicing it with leaders of our world. I also started practicing Ho’oponopono as an American, sincerely asking for global forgiveness of our massive karmic debt to humanity. Turning the other cheek to our leaders’ decisions to bomb, raid, torture and decimate doesn’t absolve us of all responsibility. At least, not in my world. I feel deep love for humanity and a true hope that we can move beyond all wars to live in peace and harmony on this planet. Speaking of this planet, I also started practicing Ho’oponopono as a citizen of Earth, sending heartfelt words to Gaia for all the ways we have refused to honor and protect her:

“I love you.
I’m sorry.
Please forgive me.
Thank you.”

After practicing with Earth, I added the rest of the Universe, the Galactics, the faery realm, angelic realm, the animals and the plants. And then I added myself, perhaps the being I have most betrayed and injured in this lifetime and so many others. Try saying Ho’oponopono to yourself! It makes me cry every single time. Big teary eyes and an even softer heart:

“I love you.
I’m sorry.
Please forgive me.
Thank you.”

There’s nothing quite like Ho’oponopono to move us so deeply into our hearts that we expand beyond any need to feel self righteous or stuck in someone else’s frames. We can create a new world, moment-by-moment and breath-by-breath. Personally, I dream of a new world filled with Love. Unconditional Love heals all.

I love you.
I’m sorry.
Please forgive me.
Thank you.

The Forgiveness Experiment

I’ve noticed a theme during recent sessions, books I’m currently reading, my sense of the world pulse (especially the Occupy Movement), and my own intuitive nudges about things that still need releasing in my life: Forgiveness. I decided to try a little experiment on a personal and a collective level:

The quickest way to get an unwanted someone out of your vibration and hence out of your life is to forgive them for whatever you believe they’ve done to you; forgive yourself for falling for it; and forgive yourself for whatever you may have done to them. Easier said than done, but easier done than left undone, since unforgiveness creates pain on all levels. I am personally working on this with someone I knew while I was very brain injured. I won’t share details here because once forgiveness happens, those details won’t matter, but in trying to shake off old cords — in particular those related to financial trickery –I keep getting the message that forgiveness is my fastest, and possibly my only, route to total freedom. “Forgive us our debts as we forgive our debtors.”

Victim mentality never thrives but neither does sustained anger. Peace within, peace without. I invite a flow of Grace, especially in this area and with this person.

I am also imagining how this works on a collective level with Obama, Monsanto and gangster/banksters. I realize that my irritation with, judgment of, and resistance to these people keeps them locked in my vibration. My attempts to release them to the angels have been only temporarily successful. I’m ready for a complete transformation of my outer world, which, I know, requires a complete transformation of my inner world. And so…I’ve spent the last 24 hours deeply pondering those areas in which I have not forgiven others or myself. I found that my feelings about Obama playing on people’s hopes only to dash them through trickery and backdoor deals with bankers, BigPharma and Monsanto were directly related to my own issues of feeling completely duped, bilked and manipulated while in a highly vulnerable state — i.e. brain injured and with no rational side.

I could see the dynamic when it projected outwards into a dumbed down, numbed out and desperate society, but found it more difficult to recognize in my own life. Whenever I would glimpse what happened on a personal level, I felt extremely uncomfortable self-judgment. “How in the world could I have fallen for that?!” As a close friend reminded me last night, “You had perhaps the best excuse someone could ever have for falling for that kind of trick: a brain injury.” It’s true, I did. But I still had intuition, and I repeatedly ignored it. I have since encountered so many clients who did not have brain injuries but also found themselves tricked into signing various paperwork that transferred anything from property to debt to responsibility from a person they trusted and unknowingly onto themselves. Turns out, it’s quite common.

One way people seem to get away with it is that the “victims” wouldn’t ever imagine doing something like this to those they love. Or to anyone, for that matter! And yet, somehow, nice, trusting people seem to attract this sort of thing. I’ve noticed patterns in my work with clients, finding that the vulnerability for being financially duped usually stems from childhood programming by well-meaning caregivers, as well as past lives that involved witch trials, character assassinations, and unexpectedly large negative consequences of minor selfish decisions. Buying into the judgment seems to result in lots of judgments this time around –even if the debt, accusations or judgment have nothing to do with the “victim.”

I put “victim” in quotes, because the victim mentality only prolongs the pattern. An abuser requires a victim in order to be an abuser, in the same way that a victim requires an abuser in order to be a victim. If we view ourselves in either –or both –roles, we will continue to tangle with an aggressive tar baby. The more we fight, the more entangled we get.

At this point in my life, and hopefully at this point in the world, I/we want results. I’ll speak for myself here when I say, “I want results so much that I’m willing to stop churning this situation around and around in my mind, because no matter how much I try to understand it, the more I think about it, the less I comprehend. I want to forgive and forget, but doing so will require help from above. I invite and invoke healing on all levels, and I ask for the Grace to release any and all attachments, judgments, fears, complaints, and misperceptions. I know we live in a perfect world. I know in the bigger scheme of things, everything is in perfect, Divine timing and order. I know that forgiving does not mean approving; yet I also accept that approval and disapproval are no longer my concerns. I am free and everyone else is free. In order to embrace the fullness of freedom, joy and bliss, I release all need to play God in favor of simply playing. And so it is.”

I’m engaging this process for even more reasons than I’ve already explained. The Forgiveness Experiment is simply my non-attached observation of how my inner transformation plays out in my personal and collective external reality. I feel curious and hopeful –excited and thrilled to be singing a new song while playing a new game. Jubilee and Namaste.