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Yantra, Cindy Lou and Metamorphosis Dream

I’m posting two dreams, because they seem like what I call Big Dreams — not just personal messages. I’ve spent the morning looking for and inquiring about the symbol that appeared, and no one knows what it is. David says he feels like he’s seen it somewhere before, but it’s not any of the more usual yantras.

1/16/2021
“Yantra, Cindy Lou, and Metamorphosis”

Awoke in the middle of the night with a sudden, shocking realization that something had just been done under cover of night. It seemed like a big, consequential thing for the US, but I don’t know what it was. It felt shocking, unbelievable — not good or bad, per se, but an event that triggers the rest of history.

No idea what time it was. I was on the BioMat but awoke quite suddenly with this shocked knowing. When I got up later it was almost 4 a.m., but it might have been 2:30 or so when I had the realization. I fell back asleep for awhile.

(Later)

I dreamt of a distinctive symbol, a kind of square (diamond) mandala:

It was vivid and dramatic, floating in the sky. It was a square diamond (point as the base and top) with three additional square diamonds inside it as the center (so a total of four concentric square diamonds as the center). Then four more of these exact same concentric diamonds intertwined in each of the corners.]

This symbol was brown and white, I think, very large, floating in the sky. It kept appearing as a large sign.

Then I was in a town home, and the next-door neighbors had a little girl who looked like Cindy Lou Who from the Grinch Who Stole Christmas. She kept crawling over to our town home and giving me little things, presumably from her mom, but after awhile I thought maybe not. Maybe just from herself. She was too young to talk except in little gurgles and Whoville sounds, but I could communicate with her telepathically.

She came over because she was an old soul in this little baby/toddler body and I was the only one she could have a real conversation with. Everyone else talked baby talk to her. Even though that’s all she could talk with her mouth, she could fully converse telepathically. Kind of reminded me of Iris, but it wasn’t Iris.

I was doing an email session for ___. It was a 25-minute session of an hour or 35 minutes. There was some ongoing mix-up of 25 or 35. I would need to do the balance but I couldn’t figure out what that was. At one point, ____ was in the townhome with me, on the upper floor, which had a balcony to see below. Cindy Lou Who child crawled in and I was telling _____ how adorable she was: “Just look and listen. Oh, my goodness, she’s so adorable, but also smart.”

Something about selecting off-white silk long underwear among three styles, which Cindy Lou Who brought over. I ended up going for the luxury one because the others just weren’t right. I tried to convince myself otherwise, but it needed to be the best one.

Then I was with someone and unsure of gender of me or the other person. We were getting ready to fly and there was an opportunity for consummation above this town home courtyard. I was unsure about this so the person suggested we fly over a park.

I checked my skin status. I was like a small sweet potato with a crispy skin from roasting, but when I peeled that away a bit I could see and feel a new, fresh, moist sweet potato skin beneath.

I agreed to fly over the park and said maybe we’ll even consummate there, because I feel ready now, just not here. The other person was also a sweet potato and agreed. Somehow, bigger wings would grow from this crispy old skin.

END of dream journal.

I edited out the name of the client for privacy, but in Japanese her name means “pure,” “flower,” “lotus, or water lily.” That seems significant.

Cindy Lou Who is the tiny child who catches the Grinch in The Grinch Who Stole Christmas:

In the original book and the animated adaptation, Cindy Lou Who gets out of bed to go get a drink of water when she finds the Grinch, disguised as Santa Claus, stuffing her family’s christmas tree up the chimney.

Mistaking him for Santa, she innocently asks him why he’s taking the tree. The Grinch, sensing innocence in the young girl, covers up his theft by fibbing to her, saying that there is a broken light on the tree and that he was taking it to his workshop to fix the problem and then return it on Christmas Day when she wakes up.

Then, the Grinch gets her drink and sends her back to bed, showing the only legitimate kindness that he has in his tiny heart.

Notably, though this is her only real scene in the original book, Cindy Lou gets a bit more screen time in the animated adaptation such as in the opening songs and at the end as the Grinch celebrates with the Whos. (You can find more Cindy Lou Who trivia at https://hero.fandom.com/wiki/Cindy_Lou_Who .

To me, the end of the dream felt like the alchemical idea of “coniunctio.”

Jung borrowed the term coniunctio from the medieval alchemists, because he believed they were picturing the same individuation process Jung was outlining in his work. Jung understood that the alchemists literalized and externalized the inner opus, which he took to be a spiritual and psychological reality.

The mystery of the coniunctio is that it is the joining of two into one, a holy marriage. According to Jung, “The coniunctio is an a priori image that occupies a prominent place in the history of man’s mental development. If we trace this idea back we find it has two sources in alchemy, one Christian, the other pagan. The Christian source is unmistakably the doctrine of Christ and the Church, sponsus and sponsa, where Christ takes the role of Sol and the Church that of Luna. The pagan source is on the one hand the hieros-gamos, on the other the marital union of the mystic with God. “The Psychology of the Transference,” (Jung, CW 16, pa. 355.)

We see then, that the coniunctio is not a physical union but rather a mental, internal state of being, a union of opposites, and in particular, the union of the conscious and unconscious. Jung described “a gradual transformation of the archetype into a psychological process which, in theory, we can call a combination of conscious and unconscious processes. (Carl Jung, CW 9i, para. 295, emphasis added)

Both Jung and the alchemists used images of the hermaphrodite to illustrate the coniunctio.

A passage from the Gospel of Thomas in the Nag Hammadi Library reads:

Jesus said to them, “When you make the two one, and when you make the inside like the outside and the outside like the inside, and the above like the below, and when you make the male and the female one and the same, so that the male not be male nor the female female.” Further discussion at https://www.kayegersch.com/the-coniunctio.

The other person and I weren’t human. We were like winged sweet potatoes! Our crispy skin peeling away became translucent wings. According to http://DreamAboutMeaning.com:

Dream about seeing sweet potatoes is a symbol for faith, hope and charity. You put forth a tough image, but are sensitive on the inside. You are feeling restricted in some area of your life. Your dream signals power, strength, virility and masculine attitudes. You are withdrawn.

Seeing sweet potatoes [in a] dream signals your desire for love and happiness over wealth and fortune. It is the core to some idea or piece of knowledge. You are hoarding something. This expresses warmth and your need for a better sense of security. There is a force that is drawing you toward a certain direction, thinking or habit. More here.

I can see personal implications of these dreams, but they do feel broader than just me. I would love someone to point me in the direction of the yantra. It was SO vivid in the dream! I know Jung considered the number four a sign of completion and a marker of the Self. This symbol emphasized several layers of four’s:

four-sided diamond/square

four concentric diamonds inside the diamond

four diamonds made of four concentric diamonds surrounding the center concentric diamond

It reminds me of the Four Elements and the “quintessence,” an idea I also explored in my 2009 novel, Schizandra and the Gates of Mu. I’ve not thought of that idea in recent times, though. The numbers four, five, 20 (4 x 5), 25 and 35 all seem emphasized in the dream, as well as two becoming one.

I have no idea what the shocking, monumental event was in the dark of night. It felt like a “move and countermove” scenario — like one movement now necessitated this next step. I just don’t know what the step was. The appearance of Cindy Lou Who in the later dream might indicate that something selfish, terrible and shocking was caught and shifted into a heart-softening for the greater good. I don’t know! I decided to share the dreams in case anyone knows what that symbol is, or if you have other ideas about the dream(s).

These arrived in context of ongoing dreams of four’s, alchemy, shedding skin and transformation. To me, the dreams feel positive, empowering and reassuring.

THE MESSAGE – IN A NUTSHELL – PART ONE

This post from Bradley Loves goes along with a much longer piece I’m working on regarding CERN, the “Sophianic Correction,” and a topic I often reference — our responsibility to reclaim the magic, the alchemy and the power we’ve allowed to slip away into the Shadows, manipulated and primarily used by psychopaths instead of pure hearted adepts. People often say, “We are the ones we have been waiting for,” without realizing the learning, courage and skill required to step into ourselves. This post gives some simple analogies to help people better embrace these ideas.

Consider … and I’ve not seen this written anywhere else, but it’s so obvious to me: “Luciferian” is a patriarchal bastardization of the original term “Luce Sophia,” the Light of Wisdom from the Ancient Mystery Schools. They were meant to protect this knowledge and instead, it has been co-opted by a perverted Luciferian agenda for personal gain and supreme control. This is the opposite of what the Ancient Mysteries taught, but the association of “Mysteries” with “Secret Societies” ensures that most good hearted people run the other direction and abdicate their own power to change the world, to create preferred realities. More to come on this topic, but I appreciate stumbling upon this post from Bradley, as it explains the complexities in simple terms.

Also a disclaimer: I do not always agree with everything that Bradley posts, but I do find this piece particularly useful and on target. In general, when I reblog or reference a post, it means I am discussing and referencing that particular post or quote, not making a blanket statement of endorsement or rejection either way regarding the author’s general work.

Love Alchemy

Short, but very sweet and true … This sharing by Tania Marie goes right along with a conversation I had the other day with my friend, Suzanna. I asked her if she’s “doing alchemy,” which led to her observations that “everything we’re doing is alchemy,” — conscious eating, transformation of body, gardening from seed to plant to fruit to seed, my portal doors, transmuting ugliness to beauty. Conscious, loving transformation IS alchemy.

Tania Marie

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Door Number 7: The Lovers

I finished The Lovers Door last night but needed to wait for daylight to get reasonable photo quality. Inspired by the Rider-Waite Tarot deck, this Lovers door also features a strong sense of Alchemical Union with the Divine. Thus, Archangel Raphael has healing coming out of his palms, and the Runes I used to code this painting evoke not just earthly soul-mate or twin soul union, but also the union of divine masculine and divine feminine energies into a trinity of one. I show two trees in this painting, but without implication of a “Fall from Grace.” This is meant to be a redemptive door, a return to the Garden after many years of exile.

** Please see the note and images below this original post. As of January 2015, the symbolic redemption has occurred even in/on/through the portal door itself, which got a major facelift. On a personal note, I had felt led for years to replace the center writing between the panels with “Gaia,” the name of the Mother Earth Goddess, originator of all fecundity and physical abundance. Humans are natural bridges between heaven and earth, and the star-shaped HAGAL Rune that runs through the lovers as light is itself a union of a deeply rooted feminine YR Rune and the masculine spiritual MAN Rune. (It also combines other Runes, as well, but I painted the portal with the intention of integration to create something new.)

You can see the original version immediately below, followed by close-ups and then the most current iteration as of January 2015.

The Lovers Door by Laura Bruno

Having written my honors thesis on Paradise Lost and having Plato’s Symposium as one of my very favorite books, I’ve long had a fascination with sacred union as a rejoining with the Divine.

Detail of The Lovers Door by Laura Bruno

For the bottom panel, I chose to include a red lotus, which symbolizes hridaya, the heart chakra. Those of you who read Schizandra and the Gates of Mu may recall that the word hridaya is also the same as the Sanskrit word for the “gateway to the highest reality.” The bottom quote emphasizes that the gateway happens without barriers: “Between God and the soul, there is no between.” –Julian of Norwich

Lotus Panel of the Lovers Door by Laura Bruno

The back of the Lovers Door features two quotes. The top panel is a chant called, “Om Radha Krishnaya Namaha,” which, again, honors the union of divine masculine and divine feminine. Deva Premal features this chant 108 times on her new CD, “Mantras for Precarious Times.” I awoke to it playing nonstop in my head last week during my final day of painting the Freya and Frigga door, which I had originally planned as the Lovers.

The bottom back panel has written in Runes a sentence from the Song of Solomon: “I am my Beloved’s [and] my Beloved is mine.” The middle of the door says “Reunion” and the other Runic inscriptions also emphasize this sacred union of divine feminine and divine masculine.

Back of the Lovers Door by Laura Bruno

I hope you enjoy this door. It’s huge! After moving it into my bedroom, I discovered that I may only have room left for one additional door in this apartment. I’ve been “told” that I’m painting 78 doors, so that tells me something’s in process of shifting. I don’t know exactly what, but I’m sure curious to see. 🙂

Close-up of the Lovers by Laura Bruno

JANUARY 2015 UPDATE:

As part of the redemption and reclaiming of humanity’s deep connection to both God and Goddess , to heaven and Earth, I finally received the intuitive instructions that now was the time to replace the original “Elohim” with “Gaia” (written in Greek), thereby grounding the lovers back to Mother Earth instead of leaving them as separate creations. On the left, you’ll see a Wheel of Being and on the right a Destiny Knot. Both Celtic designs come from necklaces David bought me on his 2012 trip to Ireland. The message of the Destiny Knot felt especially appropriate to this portal reclamation:

“Carried as a symbol of Hope and Faith, it is believed that once a person comes to a certain time in their lives, it is said that the knot will then unwind, showing you the true path your life must take.”

Close-up of "Gaia" revision of Laura Bruno's The Lovers Door

Close-up of “Gaia” revision of Laura Bruno’s The Lovers Door

Please click images if you’d like to enlarge them. Below, you can see the full door as it now stands, although I feel I will at some point add a lightning bolt into the center of the red lotus — symbolizing a shamanic union of male and female. As of January 28, 2015, the time is not yet ripe for that one. 🙂

The Lovers Door with "Gaia reclamation" by Laura Bruno

The Lovers Door with “Gaia reclamation” by Laura Bruno

Many Blessings!

Door Number 4: Four of Wands, aka “Karuna”

Happy Easter! I haven’t actually finished Door Number 4, but the front is done, so I thought I’d post before the holiday. This one features a version of the Rider-Waite Tarot card for the Four of Wands.

Four of Wands, aka “Karuna” door front by Laura Bruno

The Sanskrit spells out “Karuna,” which means “compassion” or “the end of all suffering.” My inspiration to include Karuna with this door was two-fold:

I went to a Good Friday service at the University of Chicago’s Rockefeller Chapel and felt drawn to go to the left side of the lying down Christ figurine. I’d been thinking of the Holy Grail all week, while wearing a moldavite pendant and saw at the service that the Christ was holding a chalice, which I had already planned for the lower panel. The word “Karuna” just popped into my head as a Sanskrit visual for the center of the door. On a personal note, my sister’s family recently got a puppy that they named Karuna. They call her “Rune” for short, though! This door is in part a welcome door for little Rune. 🙂

My Sister’s Dog, Karuna, aka “Rune”

The bottom quote is by Kahlil Gibran: “Trust in dreams for in them is hidden the gate to eternity.” I kept dreaming of “the 30th card in the Tarot” until I finally remembered from Tom’s reading in Schizandra and the Gates of Mu that the 30th card is the Four of Wands. The image worked for me with a few tweaks, as I had also been dreaming of some specific combinations of Runes that came together in the shape of the couple with their arms at those angles. LOL, very active dream life lately!

A note on colors: the Sanskrit and 9999 on top are written in gold. The fish (walleye) eyes are silver, as are the orbs on top of the wands, and the area surrounding the chalice. The flash makes the silver look white. Again, I must apologize for the BlackBerry photo quality. If you have a professional camera setup and live in Chicago, please contact me! 😉

Top Panel of Four of Wands Door by Laura Bruno

Bottom Panel Four of Wands Door by Laura Bruno

And … as a special treat … I have a before picture! This is what I started with. Well, it’s actually a heavily cleaned version of what I started with. Below is the back before priming it, and believe it or not, the front actually looked worse!

Before Photo Four of Wands Door

Perhaps you can see why I consider painting these doors, or portals, as part of an alchemy process. I might not be turning baser metals into gold, but some of these doors arrive in pretty grim shape! I like to think we can transmute ourselves and our reality into whatever beautiful things we can imagine.

Blessed Be.

Alchemy, Energy and Electronics

Reiki students often ask me about this phenomenon, and I’ve been blowing out a lot of things lately, so I thought I’d post on it. Why is it that people who do spiritual work or who channel a lot of spiritual energy have trouble with electronics? Watches break, fly off the wrist, or stop working; laptops fry; lights flicker; and/or phones disconnect. What’s up with that?

Well, the short answer is that everything is made of energy, including us, so when our energy fields expand, become disrupted, or imbalanced, we can inadvertantly send extra energy currents to things like computers, cars and streetlamps. Although it can happen any time to anyone, it seems to occur most often when someone activates or enhances a new aspect of his or her energy field. For example, Reiki students frequently report that streetlights turn on or off when they walk underneath them. It doesn’t happen forever, but seems to last as long as it takes for them to integrate the attunement that opens the energy channels in their hands and crown chakra.

In my own life, I know my laptops tend to die immediately before I publish a new book or receive some kind of major “download” of information. This happened when I moved to Santa Fe in October 2002 and when I started teaching Reiki on my own without Stephen in 2006. Then, on a different laptop it happened with my first ebook in 2008, and then again when I published If I Only Had a Brain Injury in paperback. In that case, I ended up getting a free new Motherboard from HP because my laptop had apparently been recalled. It just happened to short out right at the moment of publication both times.

When I released The Lazy Raw Foodist’s Guide, the same, resurrected laptop caught a trojan and died again, only to be re-resurrected by a computer guru. When I went to Mendocino last September, my laptop finally died for good (at least for me) the night before I discovered the Runes and language coding. I felt grateful in that case because I sensed that the laptop took the hit for me, instead of another brain injury or some other sort of mind warp that often accompanies a major shift in perspective.

I knew that I would never get that laptop working for me again. It was like my old laptop represented my old brain, and that brain was gone for good. No longer compatible with that Pavilion. So I replaced it. I did save it, though, feeling it might possibly work for someone else. Sure enough, I met someone in Evanston who needed a laptop and in the same hour I went through a major healing of some old things with my sister last week, that person managed to turn on my laptop for the first time in six months.

Since moving to Chicago, I’ve been blowing out a lot of things again. It seems like every week my energy expands, and the electronics around me are struggling a bit. So far so good on my new laptop. I have been very, very careful with it! But I’ve gone through two modems and a router from Comcast, plus three unexplained switch-off’s of my phone service, and two replacements of my BlackBerry Storm, just in the past three weeks. I will say this: Comcast and Verizon have been wonderful! I am now on very friendly terms with everyone in the Verizon store downtown, which just happens to be situated next to a great art supply store.

Isn’t all of this annoying and why can’t I control my energy??? Yes, I suppose some people would find it annoying. Maybe I should. But I don’t. I just know it means my energy’s expanding and that good things are on the way. That’s what always happens. Plus, I enjoy my trips downtown. Today, for example, I got an intuitive hit to go downtown, but I resisted, thinking I should stay home and blog and that I had no real reason for going downtown. Within moments, my BlackBerry completely died again. OK, I thought, I’ll go fix it tomorrow, but then I noticed I had no home phone service either. The double whammy always gets me to a Verizon store!

I ended up having a lovely day. I got off near the Art Institute and felt a little nudge that it was free on Tuesdays. That thought got me into the door. Well, it USED to be free on Tuesdays way back when, but the bookstore is always free, so I headed in there to explore. Museums tend to overwhelm me anyway. The bookstore was more my speed. While there, I found some great inspiration for a few new paintings and a super sale priced book on Alchemy and Mysticism. Feeling complete on that leg of the journey, I headed to Verizon where I received yet another free BlackBerry Storm, plus instructions on how to text message and how to take non-upside-down photos (I hope!) with my new BB. Then I found some great sale canvases and paints at the art supply store. Annoying? Not really. I’ve learned to embrace my failing electronics as nudges to focus my energy somewhere else.

Back to the other question: can’t I control it? And can others? That one’s a little trickier. In theory, yes, we can control our energy. The problem is that when it’s expanding or opening in new ways, we may not yet know how. Personally, I prefer to let the unfolding take place in as natural and unobstructed a manner as possible. I used to try to keep my energy folded in upon itself, but I found that only made the short circuiting worse, and it would take much longer to complete the process. I’ve noticed similar things with other people. If they resist or get frustrated with electronic mayhem, then it only increases their energy. Anger/frustration amps up your frenetic, uncontrolled energy!

If at all possible, I recommend people take a break from whatever’s going haywire. You may be trying to tell yourself you need seclusion (i.e. no phone communication or fewer emails), or perhaps a walk in nature. Rest assured, your new levels of energy will eventually rebalance themselves. And if not, there’s a message in that as well. Maybe you’re not meant to work a computer oriented job. Maybe your watch keeps breaking because you’ve become a slave to linear time. When energetic blips persist beyond a short transition, they usually portend a more permanent shift in the works. I know it’s hard to imagine in this world of iPods, iPhones, BlackBerries, tweetdecks and Droids, but there really is life beyond electronics. Embracing that life will help you to transmute your excess energy into something worthwhile.

As my friend Toni says, “use your power for good.” And I would add, “use it or lose it.” When you start blowing out electronics, recognize that as a sign of shift and enhancement. Then claim what’s yours and make the most of it!

Many blessings

Door Number 2: The Alchemy Door

Please see the important update below from December 2014. This door no longer looks quite the same and has totally different, flowing energy now.

Please also note, the colors look much more yellow in these pictures than the actual door; in person it looks more dreamy and muted. I used a combination of acrylic paints and oil pastels, and the oil pastels seem to photograph more intensely than the acrylics. Anyway, these photos give the general idea:

The Alchemy Door by Laura Bruno

Alchemy Sun

The Androgyne

Phoenix and Peacock

Follow Your Bliss

While I designed the first door as a portal, this one embodies some key principles of Alchemy, which I’ve studied since I read Plato’s Symposium during my senior year of high school. I became so fascinated with the union of opposites that my college honor’s thesis explores Mercury, Hermes Trismegistus (the father of Alchemy), the mythical Phoenix, and Plato’s story of the Hermaphrodite as they relate to Archangel Raphael. This door features something called the Androgyne, a union of sulfur and mercury (that which burns and that which is volatile), and a union of masculine and feminine. (I modified the image from something I found in the Book of Symbols.)

The phoenix and peacock at the bottom also represent a union of masculine and feminine, as well as the ability to regenerate. The phoenix rises from its own ashes, and the peacock’s tale symbolizes the all-seeing eyes of God, as well as the inner astral world. (I modified the bird images from some I found here, because I liked the calligraphic feel to them.)

The words at the top are the Hebrew Tetragrammaton, sometimes translated as JHWH, Yahweh, or “I Am That I Am.” The bottom of the door includes a favorite quote by Joseph Campbell, “Follow your bliss and the universe will open doors where there were only walls.” I had intended to paint the back and may do so at some later time. For now, though, this door seems complete. I hope you enjoy it. 🙂

Many Blessings and Happy Transmutation!

December 2014 UPDATE: Well, it took awhile, but the door did eventually complete itself. I painted the back shortly after originally posting about the door; however, the door constantly reminded me that something was keeping the alchemy in check. On Christmas 2014, for a variety of reasons too long to explain here, I felt led to repaint the top of the door, replacing the demi-urge with Sophia, written in a Rune System whose letters emphasize the Sacred and Divine Feminine, as well as matrilineal heritage. As soon as I shifted the door from a patriarchal “I Am That I Am” to the dynamically creative Goddess embodied in our planet, the door came alive. That’s the only way I can describe it.

The door is already in place in our very carefully arranged, small living room, so I apologize for other objects in the photos. I can only move them so far out of the way. 🙂

Alchemy Door with Sophia in Runes

Alchemy Door with Sophia in Runes

Sophia Correction on Christmas

The energy of our entire home has shifted with this seemingly simple revision. It was not actually a simple process, as it involved many layers of paint, along with brown marker to dull down a too bright red. The net result of that process, however, was that the Runes got traced and retraced many, many times, amplifying the intended shift. Our home feels lighter and with more feminine flow now. The door’s energy also feels like it cycles up and back down and up, like a Tantric circuit, rather than having a patriarchal energy bearing down upon it and keeping the process from completion.

I did not expect it to take me nearly five years to complete this portal door, but due to several other simultaneous developments in our world, Christmas 2014 felt like exactly the right moment to do so.