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Retiring “Schizandra and the Gates of Mu”

After long consideration and the recent appearance of the external sign I requested for timing, I have decided to remove my first novel, “Schizandra and the Gates of Mu” from distribution. For the past couple years, I’ve wanted to de-list this book, since I wrote it for a pre-2012 audience, and so much has changed since its 2009 publication. Every time I thought to take it out of print, though, I received the word, “Wait.”

I finally sensed the time had come and requested validation, which came in the form of a new review which expresses my own feelings — that this book “is a product of its time.” So many of the fresh and imagined things I included have now become mainstream or even cliche. Although the novel still works on a mythological level, when I left California and my entire life behind, I also left behind the intended series. I honestly don’t know if or when I will return to those characters.

I have spent the past few months delving into how-to-write-fiction books, something I never did before writing “Schizandra and the Gates of Mu.” I do feel proud of it as a first novel; however, I also see clearly how I will shift my future storytelling. Synchronously, the retirement date, November 1, occurs on what would be Schizandra’s 30th birthday, as well as the date I will return to writing fiction after an 8-year hiatus that began while writing Book 2 of the Schizandra series. You can read the strange story behind that hiatus by clicking here.

All of which is to say, if you’ve ever wanted to purchase “Schizandra and the Gates of Mu” and still want to, then you have two more weeks to do so. In honor of her 30th birthday on November 1, 2017, Schizandra will enter retirement for the foreseeable future, just as her creator comes out of retirement.

 

When Fiction Becomes Life ~ Schizandra Update

I continue to receive emails from enthusiastic readers of Schizandra and the Gates of Mu ~ readers wondering when I’ll release the next book in the series. The short answer is: I don’t know, but I’m leaning towards never. The longer answer follows:

In 2010, I alluded to a strange situation in which everything I started writing in Book 2 began to manifest almost instantly in my life. If a character developed a health issue, one or more new clients contacted me with that exact health issue within 24 hours. If I created a situation for tension and plot advancement, that situation (or an obvious derivative of it) appeared in my own life. Some “real” but faraway people on whom characters in Book 1 and Book 2 were loosely based suddenly blasted through the comfortable separation of years, re-inserting themselves firmly in my reality.

I had been participating in NaNoWriMo during November 2009, writing thousands of words per day for the first two weeks. By the beginning of week 3, the lines between fiction and life had blurred so much that I decided to regroup. I shelved the manuscript, but the synchronicity and reordering continued. Writing Book 2 opened Pandora’s Box. By February 2010, I found myself having filed for divorce and moved to Chicago. And there, the real adventures began …

Prior to moving to Chicago, I thought it was Book 2 that carried such strange power. Now, nearly three years later, I see that Book 1 has also manifested in major ways. When I first wrote Schizandra and the Gates of Mu, I knew little about many of the background topics. I researched, researched, researched for the book, but oddly enough, people who know me now and read the novel wonder if I wrote it as an autobiography. “Those characters are so you! And the crystals! Madison?!” Here’s the deal: when I wrote Book 1, I had never been to Madison and had no intentions of ever moving there. I had lived in Chicago and Sedona but had no intentions of relocating again to either of those places either. My divorce landed me, through a series of overwhelming synchronicities, not in Evanston, IL as I had planned, but in Hyde Park, Chicago where Schizandra lived with her now-deceased father. Nine months later, another series of undeniable synchronicities resulted in me moving to Madison –home of Schizandra’s eccentric spinster aunts, Rosemary and Lobelia.

In Book 2, I introduce Schizandra as having particularly good matchmaking abilities ~ perhaps the easiest of her gifts for society to accept. Schizandra and the Gates of Mu itself played a curiously persistent role in getting me together with David, who, coincidentally, had lived in Madison for many years and met me due to a tightly woven tapestry of synchronicities surrounding my living in Hyde Park. Even odder? Since he and I moved in as housemates and eventually got together, I learned that he has two spinster aunts, one tall and thin, like Rosemary, and one shorter and stockier, like Lobelia. Whereas my characters were reflexologists from Madison, David’s aunts are liberal nurses who use homeopathy! The last chapter I wrote in Book 2, before all the Pandora’s Box events occurred, has Schizandra encountering a bald giant in the desert. David shaves his head.

Then there’s the whole Shazzie connection. My (now) dear friend Shazzie of UK raw food fame, was relatively unknown to me at the time I began Schizandra. She and I became friends largely because of events surrounding the writing and releasing of Schizandra. The events themselves are far too strange to share, but suffice to say, Shazzie/Schizandra matchmakes friends as well. 🙂

No telling of Schizandra synchroncities would be complete without mentioning portal doors. Yes, Book 2’s outline has Schizandra painting portal doors at her grandmother’s house in Sedona. As soon as I shelved the manuscript in late 2009, the first of my doors appeared. I painted them into portals, and then, when I moved to Chicago, doors continued to find me. My friends Wendy and Matthew found door number 3, and then I learned from my apartment’s maintenance man that my bedroom was directly under The Motherload of Doors. Not knowing why, the building’s owner had ordered management (years prior) to save the doors. My maintenance guy immediately recognized my portals as the mysterious reason for saving them when everything else in the attic got thrown away.

In retrospect, I love how life reordered itself at the stroke of a keyboard. Some things took longer to undo and redo, but I find myself incomprehensibly happier, more grounded and delighted in life than when I began Book 2. (Or Book 1, for that matter!) I find myself surrounded by people I love in a community I love, living in a magical home filled with portal doors, crystals, Rune-coded paintings, Tarot cards and faeries. I have all but completely extricated myself from any undesired tangles, and I love my life’s trajectory. I love my life!

Because I love this life, and due to the obvious (to me and others) interconnections between this life and the Schizandra series, I feel extremely reluctant to tip over the chess board and begin anew. After “summoning” past ghosts of characters into flesh and blood, it took quite a lot of effort to re-extricate myself from people I had left behind. Given the now-recognized correspondence between people I didn’t know at the time of writing but do now know and love, I also feel cautious about putting those characters through the conflicts and challenges necessary to move a plot forward. What if the fictional health crises and dangers bleed through into my loved ones’ lives? I know it sounds nuts, but the instant manifestations of Book 2 were pretty freaky to all involved.

Writing Book 1 took a massive toll on my body, mind and spirit. It felt like an Initiation, complete with a descent into the Underworld, relinquishing all my old life, near death encounters, and fighting through the Shadows. I love the results, but having reached a happy still-point on the other side, I find myself wanting to leave all the pieces and people in their place, free to live and love without my fictional influence and orchestration.

Will I write another novel? Probably. I feel one percolating now, and I’m excited about its possibilities. Will I write another Schizandra novel? Probably not. I don’t like to say “never,” because “never” usually means “I will.” Would all fiction bleed through like Schizandra and her crew do? Maybe so. That’s why any fiction I write will include those things I most want to experience, in places I’d love to go, with characters who aren’t attached in any way to people from the past whom I may not wish to summon. I know I’m not the only one who experiences such things (1111 words right then!). Ponder “The Neverending Story,” Bruce Lipton’s “Biology of Belief” or Heisenberg’s Uncertainty Principle: we live in a highly dynamic, interactive world in which instant manifestation from thought can and does occur. With creation comes responsibility. May we all love and create well … honoring those times when we feel “enough is enough” and building new paradigms as Love and Life inspire us.

Peace!

2012: A Call to Co-Creation

Today we have a guest blog post from one of my favorite people on the planet: numerologist, astrologer, tarot reader, teacher, author and channeler, Timothy Glenn. Some of you will recognize Tim’s name as the person who shared with me the powerful Blue Room Meditation. Others will recognize some of the information below from my novel, Schizandra and the Gates of Mu. Tim provided the content for Schizandra’s extensive numerology/tarot/astrology reading — via actual charts for my fictional character. The character Tom Brown was inspired by both Timothy Glenn and Sir Thomas Browne.

Tim sent me the following as an email response to my last post. (“Hi, Sis! I read your Good-bye to 2011. Here’s my hello to 2012. This is the year we’ve been talking about for so long, and big things are going to happen on lots of levels. Enjoy!”) I hope you all find it as right on and inspirational as I did. Thanks, Tim!

2012: A Call to Co-Creation

A Numerological Perspective
by
T.J. Glenn

Last year’s article was entitled 2011: A Call to Community. Windows of opportunity opened for us to coalesce into groups of resonant people; families, organizations, dolphin pods, or however you wish to envision it. A lot of us got shuffled around, as our Spirits moved us into position for the pivotal year of 2012. Friendships, partnerships and all manner of relationships started, ended, grew or morphed in significant ways.
In the planetary shift, synergy is the key.

Separation into Oneness

2011 presented us with a curious paradox. Having played the game of separation for ages, many of us have begun the journey back into Universal Oneness. But not all Souls are ready to make the journey at the same time in the same way, so a temporary parting of the ways has occurred within our world, to facilitate the merger into Oneness later on another level of existence. No almighty cosmic law dictates that everyone incarnated in this world at this time has to join hands with everybody else, and go skipping down a primrose path to paradise.

Some Souls have not finished playing the old games, and we honor their choices, no matter how painful or stupid those choices may look to us. In the lives of most people, this phenomenon of separating into Oneness has been manifesting.

But this phenomenon also loomed large on a planetary scale in 2011. Toward the end of August, the energetic split finally occurred. Those who insist on going down with the ship of the old world, finally veered off onto probability lines to pursue further experience in limitation. Those of us who are devoted to making the quantum leap to the next level of evolution, have continued our metamorphosis into the realm of infinite possibilities.

As the two worlds of humanity grow apart, we separate the wheat from the chaff. It becomes progressively more obvious who is who, and who is still in the middle wondering which way to go. And what a choice: to crawl along the path of fear as a numbed-out Matrix Unit, or to fly free as a Conscious Co-Creator in a love-based reality.

Mutate or Die

A few Sensitives have reported that during the August separation process, they were guided to step aside from this reality to cushion the impact on their physical and emotional bodies. They went through the motions of life for a week or so “only partially embodied”, “as though in a trance” or “as the observer”, and then resumed full presence.

Although other factors were involved, perhaps a vestige of my old Warrior’s Way plunged full force into the emotional maelstrom, rather than buffering the effects of the split. By mid September I had lost over 10% of my body weight (not that there was much to spare) and found myself working through a host of complications, eventually spending most of the month of November near death’s door. When it feels as though your emotional body has been stripped to the bare bones, and your physical body reflects the experience, you have an opportunity to cut to the core. But the choice we are offered by a quantum leap of evolution is quite simple: mutate or die.

This healing crisis resolved with the integration of issues stemming from the body’s genetic download; a mix of two bloodlines who had hated and fought each other for over a thousand years. On a deeper level, the conflict involved Soul groups who had despised and opposed each other for millenia beyond count. The solution lay in carrying the Pre-Birth Chi forward in a state of peace. This can be achieved through love, understanding and forgiveness; essential tools for navigating the unchartered waters of 2012 and beyond.

2012 = 2 + 0 + 1 + 2 = 5

The number 5 indicates growth, change, evolution, freedom, expression. We can’t expect a 5 cycle to hold still for us while we fiddle with trifles. 2012 sounds the clarion call to action, with an emphasis on freedom of expression; a revolution of evolution.

If you established any spiritual foundations in the previous year, now is the time to build on those foundations. Consider yourself as having been issued a Creative License by the Universe. While the world changes under your very feet, you can begin embodying your Angelic Self and learn to wing it.

Everything in Numerology is based on cycles of 1 through 9, and 5 serves as the hinge point in the middle. More of life will pivot on 2012 than on any other 5 cycle in history. Not even the crust of the Earth will sit still this year. If we are flexible and adaptable, we can evolve.

2012 = 20 + 12 = 32

Especially if we pronounce the year Twenty Twelve, we invoke the energy of 32. Consider this: July 4, 1776 = 32, which inspires liberation. Are you courageous enough to declare your independence, despite threats from those who claim the right to rule us? The energy of 32 can look an oppressor in the eye and say, “King George, we understand you rule the British Empire. We understand the British Empire is growing to encompass a quarter of the world’s land mass, and your navies rule the Seven Seas. And we understand the sun never sets on the British Empire – but – as far as we are concerned, you can shove your Empire where the sun never shines at all.”

The Spirit of July 4, 1776 declares independence and means business. In Zodiacal Numerology, 32 carries the energy of Scorpio, so when 32 says “Give me liberty or give me death”, this goes far beyond mere parroting of political slogans. The principle of “Live free or die” will rise in public awareness this year. But perhaps we can edit the old saying: “Give me Liberty, or give me a new Reality.”

2012 = 32 = 5. The fifth sign of the Zodiac is Leo the Lion. The average Matrix Unit may opt to play The Cowardly Lion, but the path of evolution calls for each of us to stand forth as The King of Beasts, as a self-governing, sovereign Being. As the would-be controllers of the world continue their desperate ploy for establishing a global totalitarian police state, what kind of Lion will you become?

A Flip Without a Flop

In a year of claptrap from flip-flopping politicians, we can reflect on the Tarot imagery of the 20 and the 12. The 20 marks a turning point; the call from the darkness into the Light, as depicted in the Judgment card.

The 12th card of the Tarot deck is known as The Hanged Man, who is not dangling from a noose, but is voluntarily flipped upside down. This symbolizes someone who entertains perspectives that are upside down according to the old world; somebody 180 degrees out from mainstream. This evinces the energy of mysticism. In the standard Waite deck, the Hanged Man radiates a golden halo.

Our evolutionary adaptability may require us to see life on Planet Earth from a radically different perspective; upside down, inside out, backwards or whatever. The 12th house in Astrology (along with the 12th sign Pisces and its ruler Neptune) can include illusion and delusion. In 2012 we may find our illusions challenged.

As the Light permeates this world and illuminates the dark corners, can we expect everything to continue looking the same? Cherished notions may dissolve before our eyes; the sacred lies of religions, the proven lies of science, the official lies of governments and the advertised lies of corporations. 2012 will offer us the chance to flip some interpretations of life, to avoid an evolutionary flop.

A New Sphere of Influence

2012 also invokes a bit of esoteric Sacred Geometry. The 12-sided Platonic solid (the dodecahedron) and the 20-sided Platonic solid (the icosahedron) combine into the 32-sided Archemedean solid known as the icosadodecahedron. Imagine a rubber icosadodecahedron you can inflate into a ball. Watch the lines as they form the seams of the ball: six perfect circles. 6, first of the perfect numbers. 6, the number of love. Perfect love. Divine love. Unconditional love. The Circle of Life.

2012 will show us a lot of things we could choose to fear, but we can choose the path of love. We can place ourselves within a spherical icosadodecahedron of Light, and let the shadows of the old world begin passing out of sight.

The Crossing

On December 21, 2012 we will cross the Galactic Equator, and the shift will begin in earnest. Through the last several years, as we have drawn nearer this plane the Mayans call The Dark Rift, the increasingly intense gravitational field has put the cosmic squeeze on our old reality. But at the end of 2012, we will finally enter the decompression chamber. Anything can happen.

Physicists often call the Universe “the field of infinite possibilities”. This echoes the scripture “With God all things are possible.” Not merely some things or most things, or almost all things. Literally all things. As we cross the Galactic Equator, our human possibilities can tap into Infinity Itself.

Consciousness creates everything. We are consciousness. 2012 will open windows of opportunity to the wonderment of Co-Creation for Conscious Beings.

Blessings,
Tim
http://soulpurposereadings.com/

Precession of the Equinoxes

This is another guest blog post by my Facebook friend, Chicago-based astrologer and acupuncturist Dean Scarpinato. I think he does a nice job contextualizing our current times within a phenomenon known as Precession of the Equinoxes. For those of you not familiar with this term, it’s the basis for the idea we are entering (or have already entered) “The Age of Aquarius.” The Mayan Calendar also relates to the Precession of the Equinoxes and the 26,000 year cycle that comes to a close on or around December 21, 2012. Mayan Elders have recently explained to the public that the great shift can happen within a time range, which we are already experiencing. Just to clarify, the Mayans themselves do not predict the end of the world, but the end of an era. Dean explores how the 1960’s offered a kind of dress rehearsal for today’s big show.

(I’ve left his piece unedited, because I appreciate his fiery style. Editing out any curse words disrupted the flow and seemed to zap the power of his points. Apologies to anyone who dislikes explicit language: there’s not a lot, but there is some in here.)

Many thanks to Dean for allowing me to share his insights with my own readers:

The world is at a point of radical change, a tipping point if you will. The ’60’s was an immature awakening, the birth of a New Age, New Consciousness, New Aeon. But it was in the hands of children who lacked the necessary discipline to rightly divide the word or to persevere in the face of established resistance , which came all to often in the form of Daddy saying “come on home boy. Let me get you a cushy job.” The Black and Brown revolutionaries ended up in jail while the white ones became Professors with book deals looking back on those whacky days of radicalism and helping society to relegate the revolution to the storage shed with all other anomalies.

But the Universe itself is moving on, as we shall see. And so you can co-opt the Revolutionary, bring corporate sponsorship to the Revolution, but the most you can do in the face of the changing Aeon is to perhaps wipe out the world population. Whether or not God or the space men or even some political figure not entirely corrupted by corporate dollars (and hopefully bullet proof as well) will come in the final reel to save us from ourselves is anyones guess. But we as a world are moving into the Age of Aquarius, the Aeon of Horus and we are at the end of a 26,000 year cycle (A Great Year) as well. So put all the laws in place to keep the sheeple in line. Uranus is gonna blow this pop stand wide open and I don’t think St Peter takes Master Card. The Church may (LOL) but I don’t think that will get you far in the Kingdom of Heaven either.

In the 60’s Uranus in Virgo was opposite Saturn in Pisces. That is to say that the revolutionary, free thinking iconoclast in the realm of the Earth Mother, virgin Isis or in her later incarnation Mary, seeded by God (heavenly process) and prepared to give birth was actively opposed by the entrenched system. We were (are?) in the Age of Pisces. At least the Sun is. From a heliocentric position the Earth is in the Age of Virgo and so this polar opposition was indeed most telling.

And perhaps, like the child Jesus, the so-called “hippies” just figured that as soon as everyone heard the good news and turned on we’d all just groove, turn our homes into crash pads and all ancient wounds would be forgotten in a nice peyote ceremony. And much like Jesus the Roman Army and its lick spittles (FBI, CIA, Local Police etc) pretty much crushed the rebellion and all its leaders. The ones it didn’t crush outright it bought off and then they co-opted the hair and dress into a fashion worn by everyone. Crazy side burns and very gay polyester bell-bottoms were in even at the Brady Bunch Home.

Then a few years back that opposition repeated itself, only 180* opposite. In other words Saturn was now in Virgo with Uranus in Pisces, and I as an Astrology couldn’t help thinking that maybe the Revolution had matured while the so-called Revolutionaries just got old. 40 years…hmmm. The Biblical number of probation. The number of years that the unbelieving generation wandered in the desert, knowing of but never reaching the Promised Land. Only Joshua and Caleb were preserved in their youth to actually take what they should have, but were not ready to take 40 years ago.

And while this is significant Astrologically, along with the fact that Pluto is in Capricorn, last seen (or not seen) there during the American and French Revolutions, it should be clear not only to any third rate Astrologer but to anyone who reads the papers that the absolute most hidden filth in the deepest invaginations of the Plutocracy we call corporate America will be forced to the surface with the fits and spats of dysenteric diarrhea until the patient finally recognizes the cause and takes the fucking cure. And not unlike so many patients I see in my Acupuncture practice, the cause of the disease is the lifestyle they covet and cherish and they would literally rather die than give up smoking, drinking eating processed garbage and lying to themselves over every detail.

So rather than recognize that capitalism is the disease and the need to get bigger bigger bigger is the mentality of a cancer which ultimately destroys its host, instead of recognizing that the Earth is a fragile eco system orbiting a spectacularly stable star in an otherwise uninhabitable infinitude, and saying “hey maybe we should take care of this place for ourselves and posterity,” we blow up mountains and drill the oceans and turn the atmosphere into a microwave. We shoot nuclear radioactive levels of DU (depleted uranium) all over the Middle East but especially Iraq, and just plain lie and cover up the fact that cancer and really really nasty birth defects are up exponentially. Then we build prisons for the dissidents (attack what few health cells are left) and blame them for all our misdeeds.

It is psychopathic and it is cancerous. And we can’t give it up because we just cannot imagine living without all the neurosis that our greed can buy (on credit). “And even still they would not stop their witchcraft”

So how exactly did we get in this mess? Better still where are we headed? We are on a ride through the Ages into a New Age that, like all new ages, will make devils out of the gods of the old age. The first will be the last. He who tells you today “grab a shovel and be productive (shovel coal into the furnace of hell)” will soon be wailing “Forgive me I was blind.” It is nothing new. It has happened a number of times throughout human history.

To digress for a moment I learned recently from a Terrence McKenna youtube that most stars only last about 700,000,000 (thats seven hundred MILLION) years. Our Sun is already 2,000,000,000 (thats 2 BILLION). Our Sun is already 3X older than the average star will ever get and its still rocking. It is an incredibly stable star system. Biological evolution has been occurring on Earth for 200,000,000 years. That means that 90% of the Earths life was completely desolate. Perhaps the Sun was hotter. Perhaps hot enough to have sustained life on Mars.

Of that maybe human beings have been around for 2,000,000 years and of that written history is no more than about 50,000 years old. Capitalism, by the way, has been around for perhaps 300 years. To conclude that the Universe would miss us, or the US dollar would require a level of ignorance that would challenge Fox News. How many Egyptian Sheckles does it take to buy a loaf of bread? Well I guess if they’re pure gold you could buy the whole US government. But if it’s FIAT Currency made of paper well you can guess what it’s worth today. Such is the fate of the US dollar and such is the fate of the current Fascist/Corporate system of government. But today, unlike in 1967, I believe it is permanent and certain.

As a world we have experienced many Ages. Ask an archeologist and they will tell you of the Ice Age, Stone Age, Bronze Age, Copper Age, Iron Age, perhaps even Space Age also known as NASA Sound Stage Age. A Sociologist might tell you of the Dark Ages and subsequent Renaissance. The Age of Enlightenment, and perhaps even the Golden Age when men walked with the gods and magick filled the air.

Talk to an Astrologer and you will learn that the Sun in its elliptical path around the Zodiac loses 1* every 72 years. This gives the Sun an ever so slight retrograde motion by which it moves backwards one sign every 2,160 years. It is called the “Precession of the Equinoxes.” Multiply 2,166 by 12 and you will find that in 26,000 years the entire Zodiac will have been circumambulated. This, Astronomers beginning I believe with Ptolemy or perhaps Pythagoras or even Plato, have labelled “The Great Year.” And that is where we stand today. That’s right…this time its different.

In reading Angels, Demons and Gods of the New Millenium, by Lon Milo DuQuette I became quite interested in brief and enlightening narrative of the historical movement of the Ages and the evolution of religious beliefs and practices. Much mystery indeed became clear and I am going to attempt to capture this narrative in my own style and perhaps with my own emphasis. I find that this historical understanding makes me all the more certain and perhaps slightly less tentative about the great, even cataclysmic changes that are approaching. I died as a rock and became a plant, as a plant I evolved into an animal, from which I became a man. Let me shed this mortal coil and awaken the god within. How splendid the adventure. Viva la revolucion!

We Are the Ones We’ve Been Waiting For

A friend just sent this to me, and I thought it was worth reposting, as I’ve had a number of recent synchronicities surrounding the Hopi. Those of you who’ve followed my blog for awhile might also remember that the title line forms part of the threshold coding of Door Number 10 (the Sun card with a Hopi theme). The idea of “the time is now” or “this is The Hour” is also a theme of Schizandra and the Gates of Mu.

You have been telling the people that this is the Eleventh Hour.

Now you must go back and tell the people that this is The Hour.

And there are things to be considered:

Where are you living?

What are you doing?

What are your relationships?

Are you in right relation?

Where is your water?

Know your garden.

It is time to speak your Truth.

Create your community. Be good to each other. And do not look outside yourself for the leader.

This could be a good time!

There is a river flowing now very fast. It is so great and swift that there are those who will be afraid. They will try to hold on to the shore. They will feel they are being torn apart, and they will suffer greatly.

Know the river has its destination. The elders say we must let go of the shore, push off into the middle of the river, keep our eyes open, and our heads above the water. See who is in there with you and celebrate.

At this time in history, we are to take nothing personally. Least of all, ourselves. For the moment that we do, our spiritual growth and journey comes to a halt.

The time of the lone wolf is over. Gather yourselves!

Banish the word struggle from your attitude and your vocabulary.

All that we do now must be done in a sacred manner and in celebration.

We are the ones we’ve been waiting for.

—The Elders Oraibi
Arizona Hopi Nation

Text copied from here.

Door Number 12: The World Card

Door Number 12 is another commissioned piece, located in the same hallway as Door Number 11. I hadn’t planned to paint a second door there, but the patron felt so happy with Door Number 11 and the bathroom door kept “talking” to me, so we agreed it needed “to express itself.” I know it sounds weird, but all three of us discussed the vision for this door — in ordinary conversations and then in dreams. I had not planned to paint a tarot card on this one, but The World Card hijacked my dreams, reminding me of how Freya and Frigga jumped in ahead of The Lovers for Door Number 6.

The World Card, Door Number 12 by Laura Bruno

The homeowner wanted the Runes for Joy and Flow in this door, and I had intended to create something entirely different, but the World Card or “Starry Dancer” appeared every time I closed my eyes. When I began researching this card, I realized why. We had decided to make this a “backwards portal,” with the image inside the bathroom instead of in the hallway. Door Number 11’s faery dominates that space and having another full image just seemed too much with the patterned rug. A small mantra, on the other hand, seemed like a nice accent.

Synchronously, the World Card is number 21 in the tarot deck, a backwards version of 12. It’s also an upside down and opposite image of the Hanged Man Card, number 12 in the tarot deck. The Hanged Man is, in turn, associated with Odin, the “father of the Runes” who hung suspended from a tree for nine days, saw the Runes upside down, understood their meaning and claimed them as his own. The back of the Freya and Frigga portal features Odin’s Rune Song. What does all this “mean”?

Heck if I know, but it seems relevant! These portals arrive in dreams, nudges and synchronicities. The Hanged Man stands for stasis and uncertainty, masculine suspension, whereas the World Card celebrates a union of male and female and a joyful fulfillment and dance. These portals do seem to have their own order and method, so I just follow along as best as I can. 🙂

That said, I think Door Number 12 is my favorite one so far. I loved the opportunity to expand outward onto the molding. To me, the bathroom seems like twice the size with this addition.

Detail, Door Number 12 by Laura Bruno

Typically, the World Card contains images for the four fixed signs in astrology: Aquarius, Scorpio, Leo and Taurus (clockwise from upper left), which translates into a man, a scorpion, a lion and a bull. The patron really did NOT want these images in the bathroom, but it felt important to include their energy in their door. I opted for the astrological symbols themselves, which you can see surrounding the laurel wreath.

Speaking of laurel wreaths, this door also seems to tie in to Door Number 3, the Daphne Door/Tree of Life, which also features laurel leaves and a woman (in that case with only her feet dancing). In tarot the third card would be the Empress, and Door Number 3 has a Chakana (the navel of the Earth) on Daphne’s belly. These cards and the Chakana also play key roles in Schizandra and the Gates of Mu.

All these 3’s! What do they mean? I don’t know, but I find the patterns and interconnections curious and fun to explore. I don’t consider this portal series “mine.” I custom design them according to patron request and dreams, but they seem to present themselves in interesting and insistent ways.

If you look closely, you can see all the patron’s intended elements encoded into the dancer’s hair and the laurel leaves:

Runes in the hair and leaves

The bottom quote announced itself in the usual “can’t get it out of my head” way and seemed perfect in meaning and feel:

For the back, which is really the front of this door, the Gayatri Mantra wanted to go there. Trouble is, the Gayatri is long, and we had opted for mantra-side out in order to minimize the details in the hallway. I remembered that the Gayatri is preceded by an introduction of sorts: oṃ(ॐ) and the formula bhūr bhuvaḥ svaḥ (भूर् भुवः स्वः), known as the mahāvyāhṛti (“great utterance”).

We decided to include the great utterance and a red lotus, which also appears on Door Number 7, the Lovers. Interestingly, to me anyway 🙂 , the full Gayatri Mantra covers the other side of Door Number 2, The Alchemy Door.

I find these doors a curiouser and curiouser process. The more I paint, the more interconnected and layered they become. The homeowner from Door Number 10 just asked me to paint Door Number 13 in her home. Fun, but also synchronous, as I have had Dan Brown’s “The Lost Symbol” sitting around on my bookshelf for months. For some reason, I got the sudden urge to start reading it this weekend, right after the patron and I determined which door to paint. Lo and behold, “The Lost Symbol” tells a story about portals and features a very important Door Number 13! I don’t know what to make of all these things, but I do know this: I felt light and free after finishing the World Card. Here’s a spontaneous photo taken the following day:

Laura Bruno on the edge of The World

Blessings and joy to you! Thanks for sharing the journey …

The Blue Room

I learned this technique from my favorite astrologer/numerologist/tarot reader and generally amazing friend, Timothy Glenn, but it’s so effective, I wanted to share it with all of you!

Anyone who has followed this blog, watched my videos or had sessions with me knows how much I love the Sat Yam Meditation as a method for releasing grief, anger, frustration, and/or fear, whether from this life or other lifetimes. Well, Tim has given me another tool to share with you. It’s called “The Blue Room,” and it works well for any relationship that you suspect old karmic ties may be influencing. As a past life reader, I’d have to add here that MOST relationships at this time have some sort of karmic tug to them. So many of us are here to finish and release old business that it’s pretty safe to say all your close family, friends and work relationships have some sort of karmic something affecting them.

The nice thing about The Blue Room meditation is that it does not involve “cutting” cords or ties. Rather, it functions as an energy exchange and rebalancing. So many karmic techniques involve actually cutting old ties, and sometimes we don’t want someone completely out of our lives. Sometimes we just want to love them … now … without all the past life craziness. The Blue Room allows this to happen in a graceful, gentle way.

Instructions: simply imagine yourself in a blue room. Blue floor, blue ceiling, blue lamps, blue furniture … blue everything …

Blue Room

To be completely accurate, this photo would need to feature blue flowers, but it was the closest image I could find on short notice and I’m not a Photoshop guru! Anyway, you get the idea: BLUE. Surround yourself with blue.

Next, tune in to whomever you want to invite into the room and welcome them to a blue seat. In your mind’s eye, calmly and sincerely explain to them that you would love to live in balance with them from now on. Tell them that you will be reclaiming any karmic energy of yours that has seeped into their being and that you will be returning any karmic energy of theirs that has seeped into yours. Perform the exchange and know that in doing so, you are ACTUALLY changing and rebalancing the relationship “in real life.” You can hug the person or just let them go. Whatever needs to happen will happen, and this does not necessarily mean they will disappear from your life. More than likely, the relationship will deepen.

You can use this technique for individuals or you can create a huge room for groups of people you have less intense relationships with but want to ensure they remain/become balanced.

I do a LOT of past life work, on myself and certainly in sessions. I’ve found many tools, but this is one of the easiest for people to use on their own. Sometimes people still “need” to hear the story or circumstances in order to let go of an ancient trauma, in which case, please do feel free to set up a session. I just love to empower people as much as possible.

Thanks to Tim for sharing this wonderful technique. He’s my astrologer/numerologist/tarot reader of choice and also, coincidentally, the inspiration and information source for Tom Brown in the Schizandra Series.