Death of the Old: Let it Go and Embrace the New!

Just a very quick note today between sessions. I’ll start with an email reply I made to someone today:

This must be the time of many deaths. I think every session this week has been about people processing someone’s death or needing to deal with their own mortality. That is not to minimize your own losses, for which I’m sorry. It’s just bordering bizarre how many clients have had death as their session topic this week.
Life is good here, but I’m also having a kind of death of a version of myself in that we have so much wildlife here — very cool, but also such an abundance of it — that gardening will be extremely different for me. There’s not much point in planting most of the things I had planned to put in, as even with fences, there are tunnels, there are climbers, flyers, it’s kind of a free for all. I wanted a more manageable garden, so this transition is forcing that upon me. I can either fight all the critters full time and still lose or plan accordingly and not even build things up too big to begin with. Choose plants they notoriously don’t eat.

Time to focus more on other things like writing and meeting compatible local people of which there was a complete dearth in Goshen! Everything is a trade-off. Given what others are processing, I’m grateful it’s just the death of a garden plan in my head.
A little more info for the blog:
Truly, I’ve heard from multiple people who’ve attended funerals this week, or who booked a session for a dying animal friend or one who recently passed, people whose parents are in hospice care, someone reinventing life after the death of a spouse, people who think they’re dying because they’re going through such intense detoxification, people who’ve done huge cleanses, either of their body or of their possessions, and multiple people I know saying “I don’t want to be here anymore,” followed by, “Don’t worry, I’m exaggerating, I wouldn’t really kill myself, but it’s just so intense!”
The times, they are a’changing! Best to roll with it, as the intensity decreases when you approach things with non-attachment and a wee, tiny sense of humor. What are these changes telling you has run its course? What freedom can you claim now that you’re less grounded in the old? If you feel stuck, try decluttering. If you feel boxed in, get creative.
I ran into two neighbors today — a next door woman named Amy who works from home and used to live in South Bend and …. the groundhog, who never misses a chance to crawl through the shed if rain washes away the fox pee. He was mighty fidgety, though, even with windless and motion-free pinwheels. One open and close of the window and he was outta here.
The encounter began to confirm what I already suspected: I’m not really going to get rid of these groundhogs. They’re everywhere around here, and I’d rather have them use a single known fence and shed dodge than burrow all over the place trying to get back in. I’d rather have them eat the prolific backyard clover than discover my front yard garden. I’d rather make peace than total war. Our neighbor also told me we have tons of wildlife, even things I’ve not yet seen, like possums (they eat 2,000 ticks per day … I invited them, and she saw a “huge one” in our front yard yesterday). We’ve also got raccoons, deer, and even wild turkeys. She looked at my front yard garden and stifled a laugh. I told her it was better than sure destruction out back.
The thing is, I love nature. I don’t want groundhog burrows all over our yard, but I’m OK with one or two sightings a week through a long standing path. I planted that food forest in Goshen because I couldn’t stand the complete lack of nature and beauty. Here, I have nature and beauty galore. There are also many edibles that wildlife find less enticing or even repellent:
  • many herbs, especially lavender, mint, hyssop, chives, thyme, and garlic
  • lots of my favorite flowers, including foxglove, dianthus, irises, daffodils, alliums, columbines, and snapdragons
  • perennial vegetables like rhubarb, horseradish and Egyptian walking onions, plus annuals like fennel, peppers, and beets
  • fruiting shrubs like aronia berry and spiny gooseberry

After reading about groundhogs climbing peach trees, decimating serviceberry bushes and stealing entire apple crops, I’m just not going to bother with those. I found a long list of groundhog resistant plants even beyond these particular favorites, which you can find here. Most groundhog resistant plants are also rabbit and deer resistant, too. I’ve got strategies to stink them out with fragrant herbs intermixed with my more vulnerable plants. I’m excited, because it’s actually a lot of easy care plants.

All of which is to say, change is here. For me and for a lot of others. David and I chose this location for the massive upgrade, and we feel it — especially me since he’s still spending his weekdays in Goshen for the next month or so. When we make a change, some things fall away. Sometimes things we dearly loved, but if we’ve set our sights and intentions, prayers and Reiki on the highest, most empowered good, then it’s much easier to release what’s leaving anyway.

I’ll leave you with a comment bump up from Timothy Glenn:

“Laura: You’re right about shifting gears while driving. To get from any gear into any other gear, you have to go through a phase called neutral. As for pivoting, another fun ditty from Abraham-Hicks is seeing life as a river — and everything you want is downstream. Even if you’ve been doing the typical human thing of paddling as hard as you can upstream, you can simply put down the silly paddle — and river by its very nature will turn your boat around. You will pivot easily and gracefully.”

Here’s to flow, ease and grace!

17 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by Nikkoale on July 7, 2017 at 3:30 pm

    ❤ I find this, Laura, on the eve of the one-year anniversary of the transition of my dad last year. And funny (not haha) that so many others are experiencing "deaths" of sorts. In the dreamstate a few nights ago, I was a screenwriter or playwright and was told by the director to get rid of a character. So I killed off the character, and I found it so easy and quick in the process that I was flipping pages from my lap onto the floor all around me. Then the "director" said, "Write the character back in." I had to do a complete and totally new rewrite. I felt that the character had to be me, but since then I have also had much indication that a big shift/timeline split is taking place right now.

    Love and Blessings, my friend!

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  2. i wondered if garden would shift. everything is finding its balance with the new and there is much you’ll be bringing forth, enjoying, and still loving with your garden and the animals. sure is nice having wildlife and living in harmony with them. i still remember our tarot sessions and talks when i visited goshen/you. i’m one of the fasting/cleansing people you mention and while there hasn’t been any intensity around transformation here either, it does have me looking through different eyes and having my own clarifications ignite, creating a shifting of gears with ease. i’m looking forward to seeing the continued blossoming with everything there for you in this new life. ❤ love you

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  3. Sending love and blessings as you honor your father and your own transitions. Very cool, symbolic dream! ❤


  4. Aw, thank you, T! Yes, it’s just too uncanny that the groundhog only appears whenever I nudge towards a much more grand scale orchard and major garden. One thing they’re known for on a spiritual level is their impeccable timing, so I’m paying attention to the “ahem” from the Universe.

    Yes, everything is shifting in so many different ways, and I’m really pleased by it. The habitual me just wants to plant, plant, plant. Meanwhile, we’re having ratatouille tonight because I still need to use up last year’s squash and tomatoes. First things first. How big a garden do I need?! The overabundance of the Goshen garden was frequently a source of overwhelm — what do I do with it all? I found ways to donate it to a soup kitchen, fed a lot of friends, had plenty for animals, but really, after the 30th squash recipe, I had already decided to take a break on those white scallop squash this year even before I heard squash are a groundhog fave.

    Love you, too! I’m excited to see your changes bursting forth, too. Always aligned …

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  5. The other thing I should probably add is that it’s not just the groundhogs and other wildlife. We have the fenced backyard, but there is a well used entry tunnel that just gets re-dug elsewhere if filled in. We can see evidence of all the previous attempts. Then we’re got a septic drain field it’s not wise to plant over, which eliminates about 1/3 of the plantable area in the backyard.

    Then there are things like currants, which can carry white pine blister rust, not dangerous to currants and other ribes, but deadly to white pines. We LOVE all the pine trees up here. Even though we have spruce in our yard, I don’t want to knowingly jeopardize nearby pines. I’ve found a couple white pine blister rust resistant ribes, but many of those have huge thorns.

    We have a south facing front yard, but it’s so well landscaped that it gets strategically shaded at the hottest parts of the day except right near the street, but that’s where the deer would come from! If these were converging symptoms on a body, I would say there’s a bigger message. Find it. In my case, I already knew the message before — don’t spend ALL my free time in the yard anymore. This is just disciplining me to keep things on a smaller scale, including efforts to deal with the wildlife. We shall see what the right balance is, but there are many factors in play here. We have zero doubt we have the right house, right yard, right neighborhood, and right city, so I’m the one who needs to get with the program here!

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  6. Posted by Romy on July 8, 2017 at 1:05 am

    Love your posts,
    And not to get you derailed from a more manageable garden but…One of my favorite books, “Behaving As If The God In All Life Mattered”. The author encountered groundhogs at one point and was able to communicate with the governing Nature Spirits and create a boundary so they all existed neighborly like. The book is all about co-creation, absolutely outstanding read and a wild ride to boot.
    For an excerpt:

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  7. Posted by Tim on July 8, 2017 at 4:41 am

    Sorry to hear of your problems with garden sharing.😏
    You need to shape your producing garden for a hoop-house. Johnnys Seeds have a good section on building these expandable structures.
    To protect your garden use hardware cloth in a size small enough to guard against furry intruders you have. Place that on the inside of the hoops. The hoop versatile framework provides a frame to hand screening for insects, netting for birds, hardware cloth for furry visitors, and even clear plastic (on the outside of the hoop frame) to extend the growing season if necessary.
    Yes, that means garden breakfasts or Tea time during sunny days in the winter. Assuming that your hoop-house has a small patio space that doubles for spring seedling space.
    To prevent burrowed use either hardware cloth or cement board down below (straight down a couple feet) along your bottom board.
    I know this sounds like a lot of work, but if you have a 20 by 14 foot growing space, and a 10 by 14 foot patio/workspace your 14 by 30 foot hoop-house would provide year-round unmunched produce and a decent patio.
    Not bad.

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  8. Posted by Kieron on July 8, 2017 at 7:38 am

    Indeed it is the time of many deaths. I’ve been noticing the mortality theme, as well, personally as well as professionally. I encounter clients who experienced major losses, passages, changes, deaths, and health crises (themselves, their kids or their parents/relatives) and most are despairing, saying, “Enough already!” Losing my longtime partner 4 months ago, myself, has led to ongoing downsizing and re-evaluating what I want to keep/save/do in my home. Friends are dealing with health crises, with deaths of their friends/family in the last week or so, including one person’s sister being murdered last fall and ripple effects from that, and my closest friends and I seemingly are always talking about passages, changes, losses these days. The difference for me is my cyclical view of everything which keeps me a little more calm than others.

    I do wonder if all this death is a symptom of Pluto in Capricorn, among other things, including today’s Capricorn Full Moon conj Pluto, an arrangement which is afflicted with other crisis aspects. Or that Fukushima effect you mentioned awhile back: change or die, and those who can’t or won’t, are leaving. Hard, but necessary pruning.

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  9. Thanks so much, Romy. Yes, I am familiar with that book, and I used many of those principles at my previous garden. I’m still doing “extra” communication, just also helping things along with some deterrents like pinwheels and wind chimes and the occasional humanely harvested from a rehab facility fox urine. Ideally, I would love to have some foxes move here, so I don’t use that too often. I enjoy foxes, and really, the groundhog(s) haven’t munched any of my plants.

    I just know there’s a balance to be kept and that having a huge garden is not my path right now. It was in Goshen, and so I had all that extra support! Here I feel I have support, but only within the sized garden I’m sensing is right. My path is shifting more towards writing and other things, but I will still have what many people would consider a big garden. 😉

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  10. Thanks, Tim! Yes, at some point, we’ve spoken of taking down the shed and turning it into a greenhouse, which would likely shift things and be a very cozy spot. I could put the Smart Pots in there and grow most of the winter.

    I used hardware cloth in our Goshen yard, so I’m familiar with it. If my path were to have the largest garden possible here, then that would work, but we LOVE our front and backyard as is. We don’t want to ruin the view that brings us so much joy. Ditto on some of the emails I’ve received from people giving me all sorts of fencing options. I will consider very decorative fencing around some of the round beds up front, but we love every single window’s view here. I just don’t want to be looking at fences. If I can’t have a productive garden just doing the animal communication and minor deterrents, living in harmony with all the different critters, including predators, then I will just grow different things.

    At this point, I’m hugging the existing landscape and just adding Big Bag Beds and Smart Pots along hedges or tree drip lines. It looks nice, and for me, beauty is at least as important as productivity. 🙂

    If we had stayed in Goshen, a hoop house was on the short list of things we’d love to add. It’s a good idea. It’s just not on my current path. 🙂

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  11. Yes, Kieron, you are among the many people needing to reinvent themselves after the death of a partner, spouse or much loved animal familiar. I think your line of work also gives you such a steady stream of crises that nothing’s ever too surprising. I know that’s the case here. Challenges are always individual, of course, but there are definitely patterns. That alone is enough to have made me believe in astrology back in 2006 when I just couldn’t deny the uncanny similarities occurring with unrelated clients from all over the world.

    Thank you for bringing up the Pluto in Capricorn and the Full Moon conj Pluto. I had forgotten about that! No wonder I’ve got that Cappy North Node calling the shots right now, as I know you and Tania do, too. Cappy North Node siblings, eh?

    And yes, it’s hard, but necessary pruning. The good news is that when done correctly, a hard pruning creates hugely abundant growth and harvests. Here’s to that!

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  12. Posted by Barbara on July 8, 2017 at 1:55 pm

    A wee bit of humor: Remember the movie, “Groundhog Day”? Methinks the groundhogs are giving sound advice to slow down, notice the repeat, and make the changes… but, yes, me, too, I’m losing/have lost people and things that I needed to let go of, including my old reliable personality which is not working anymore… and just when I thought I’d remembered who I was! Not much fun, but I have to hope that this ‘hard pruning’ is a good thing. Thanks for your update, Laura, and for the comments…. very helpful. Love, B.

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  13. Yes, you’re totally right, Barbara! That movie has occurred to me when reading some people’s online accounts of the lengths they’ve gone to in order to thwart groundhogs, as well as the creativity, intelligence and persistence of groundhogs when they want what they want. That’s among the many things that convinced me I need to have a different approach, even though I’m really not having any real issues with them at the moment. Best to remain on path and get the message, lest the message keep repeating itself a la Bill Murray.

    It’s funny, too, that David has noted similarities between groundhogs and me. For example, we both move massive amounts of dirt! After buying $200 worth of bagged soil last weekend, which only filled about 1/3 of my beds and Smart Pots, I have opted for delivery, which is much cheaper and ecological. I spoke with someone at the compost place and asked her to confirm my calculations. Out of curiosity, I asked how much that would weigh. She calculates over 2,000 pounds, which if the storms here keep up, I’ll be moving in a single day.

    In Goshen, I got dozens of mulch and several large compost deliveries in order to build the soil there. Our mulch guy calculated that in 2013 alone, I moved over 26,000 pounds of mulch — almost entirely by myself. The next year it was about 20K and about 15K the year after that. 2016 was a light year due to my dad’s death and me being out of town helping my parents/moving my mom, which led to total adrenal exhaustion. I only moved about 6K pounds of mulch that year.

    Anyway, when the energies are pushing us to adapt, we best adapt. It’s not always fun, but keeping a good attitude and looking for blessings instead of fighting everything and everyone sure lightens the load. Much love and thanks for your comment … Laura

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  14. Posted by Barbara on July 8, 2017 at 6:46 pm

    Here’s a thought, when the groundhogs dig up the dirt around their holes and thus around your home, thank them, and cart those mounds of dirt into your garden. Who knows? Could be that the dirt the little guys are bringing to the surface has more good nutrients in it than anything that can be bought, and I bet the groundhogs wouldn’t mind. Might be the beginning of a wonderful relationship. Because yes, looking for the blessing is…. well, you know! Love, B.

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  16. Posted by Linette on July 10, 2017 at 8:37 am

    This post gave me a lot to think about, particularly with Jason’s knee injury happening just as we were moving into our little Goshen paradise. It’s been a surprisingly emotionally nuanced transition for us, with all sorts of old beliefs and patterns popping up like little groundhogs to be observed and addressed. With the knee being so intimately related with grounding and movement and the root chakra in general, his pain there has really brought our attention to those issues. Meanwhile, I have been feeling loss on several levels myself, with having to re-home my sweet Sasha (who had emphatically stated her desire to forge her own path separate from ours by attacking our elderly cat), release many possessions, and remain in receiving mode as we settle in to our new home and the new routines and activities it brings. I am finding staying grounded so much easier here, as the garden requires so much of my attention and just all the physical activity involved with moving. I am excited about what new chapters will open up for me and Jason here, not just in this new home, but in this new head-space.

    I think of you often in your new realm, and it makes my heart so happy that you are as thrilled with your home as I am with mine. I only hope I can one day return the generosity you and David have showered on us!

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  17. Thanks for sharing here, Linette. Yes, I wondered about that with Jason’s knee, too — also flexibility with all the new things in your lives, including the new head space. You’re most welcome. How sad that Sasha kale cat acted out before getting to live in a place where she could have had all the kale she wanted. This Full Moon in Capricorn has been very interesting to observe the ways in which people step up, drop back, react and/or adjust to the new frequencies being offered.

    It was such an intense energy that I ended up postponing some scheduled property clearings until today when the still nearly Full Moon heads into what seems like an easier Aquarius space.

    Wishing you and the kitties continued happiness in your new place. I’m still studying our land here, like I do. Soon, I’ll know it as well as the land you’re on. 🙂 ❤

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