Riptides and the Emotional Guidance Scale

Ever go swimming in the ocean and get caught by the current called a “riptide”? The past week’s energies have been so strong, so tumultuous, that I know many — myself included — have felt pulled out to sea in a swirling tug of imminent destruction. Then, just as mysteriously, the waves can swallow and spit us out on a deserted island paradise, under the sand, or on an unrecognizably tranformed coastline. I’ve felt this more than once in the past week, especially Friday and Saturday, although the waves and slate gray seas have been building for awhile.

In my own life, today marks the 16th anniversary of my brain injury — and the time leading up to that felt similarly intense and Fated. Something powerful loomed — something with the strength to reroute an entire lifetime of focus and determination. I could swim as carefully as I liked, but simply existing in the water at that moment meant certain, radical change. I have since met many other brain injury survivors who acquired their TBI in 1998. I’ve also coached many clients for whom 1998 marked a massive shift in life’s direction, usually through trauma that eventually revealed itself as an indelible scar and blessing. 1987 was another of those years — in my own life, but also in the life of Gaia with the Harmonic Convergence in August. I felt the building tsunami in 2001, with premonitions many months prior to 9/11, as well as a night of dreams and an epiphany exactly at the moment of the first explosion.

2012 was advertised as another huge shift, and, indeed, the awakening tides grew much stronger then. But this period, right now, feels more on par with 1987, 1998 and 2001. Something’s brewing. And it’s big. Several months ago, I had what felt like a prophetic dream, which mentioned the date 6/14/14 over and over again. I don’t normally dream about dates, but in this dream, not only was it 6/14/14, but the characters kept pointing to calendars and remarking on 6/14/14 as a birthday. At the end of the dream, someone handed me a lotus blossom, with the mud still dripping from their hand. I got the impression that the “lotus” was the world, blossoming from a period of “mud.” When I opened my eyes (in waking life), a large, pink rectangle of light hovered over the jewelry tree that houses my necklaces, including all the crystals. I could find no external source for this light. It just hovered there over the crystals and tree for a moment, locking in the dream.

I’m not usually one for floating dates out there. So many come and go, with much fanfare and little shift. Perhaps 6/14/14 will be such a date, which is why I haven’t mentioned it until now, except to two astrologer friends of mine. I had them both check, and they found potential intensity there, but the date would not normally have jumped out at them as significant, if I hadn’t asked. I only mention this now, because the dream’s impression of a period of extreme turmoil leading into the birth of this lotus blossom renewal from the mud feels like it’s happening right now.

While in Chicago last week, my family and I spent some time at the Art Institute of Chicago, where I photographed this Nataraja statue for my friend Ingrid, who has one of her own from India:

Nataraja

The Nataraja shows the god, Shiva, in his role as the cosmic dancer who simultaneously destroys the old, worn out universe and dances the new one into being. I’ve been feeling — perhaps even channeling — Shiva energy this week, as I weed whacked thousands upon thousands of dandelion heads that had gone to seed while I was in Chicago. I began by trying to collect the errant puff balls, but after a 20 gallon garbage can full of bagged puffs, I had made only a small dent. My desire to destroy what looks like squalor in my would be oasis surrounded by factories, a brown field, a caved in garage roof and houses and sidewalks in various states of disrepair, somehow seemed very Shiva and very appropriate.

Here I was, battling thousands upon thousands of high rise dandelion stalks, each filled with thousands upon thousands of seeds, flying around whether I whacked or carefully packaged them in a bag that ripped and released them all over the yard anyway. An exercise in futility, and yet, letting the white puffball stalks just wave in the wind to corrupt my intentionally planted flowers, fruit trees and edible ornamentals seemed impossible. How could I not act while I still had some agency?

As silly as it sounds, the yard broke me this week. Really, it was the contrast of the yard with the beautiful images from the Lurie Garden in Chicago and the Art Institute, my beloved Lake Michigan, the amazing food and urban culture, along with nostalgia for some of my own artwork (and innocence) from 1998, which my brother still has displayed in their Evanston condo. A flood of memories, emotions, contrasts, healed relationships, realizations and all of Life just culminated in coming home to the contrast of joy at seeing David again during a lovely meal at our favorite Korean restaurant, and returning to frost having killed my pumpkin and cucumber plants while squirrels chopped off lily and tulip heads but ignored the thousands upon thousands of unwelcome dandelion seed heads spreading far outside the agreed upon “wild area” of our (back) yard. Our next door neighbors’ yard was far worse, blending right into ours.

It wasn’t really about the yard, but weed whacking it brought some small satisfaction and relief. Not because it will do anything to prevent the spread of those dandelions — thickly planted clover and rapidly spreading “All Heal” will do that better than any weed whacker can. The yellow flowers even turn to seed heads after I chop them off, so it truly was an exercise in futility … and yet … somehow, it just felt like the energy of the times: Shiva, Lord of Destruction, Eliminator of Illusion, dancing through the entropy, welcoming in the new universe.

Why am I sharing all of this? Because I know of others experiencing similar, though perhaps less symbolic, simultaneous deaths and rebirths as various unwanted realizations hit and lodge home. As I mentioned to a friend this morning in a longer apology for my seemingly out of character behavior of weed whacking with abandon and threatening to evict “my” faeries for neglecting our agreements:

I know that weed whacking is not a long term, in alignment solution. It’s just where I was for the past week dealing with a tumult of emotions, disappointments, and reality shots upside the head. The crash is really coming. Goshen will not be immune. I am living, probably for the longest time I have lived anywhere, in an area with virtually no physical beauty support — quite the opposite, in fact, with all the factories, flat topography, and general dilapidation. And this is PRE-crash. There is not a large pagan community with whom to practice ritual and group magic that might shift things. In fact, most of the population is terrified of magic, and most of the really good people in town are welcoming the beast with open arms.

I am certain I will find ways to deal with this — the awareness has just gradually been creeping into consciousness and finally has become undeniable. It’s done. We will each need to take care of ourselves and our own lives. I will witness many of the things that give me nightmares, even if these things do not happen to me. Even though we are not in a large city here, we are starting from such an extreme place of poverty already that we could very well experience some of the worst things of a city during a crash. …

I just need to recalibrate myself with this new reality so that I can embrace it and make the best of it. I have, apparently, been living in complete and utter denial. I turned [other situations] into extreme blessings once I managed to accept that they had happened and really weren’t going away except in their own sweet time whenever the process was complete. Dodging bullets requires very different skills, mindset, tools and emotional balance than gracefully moving through what you foresaw but did not wish to see, and what you tried to avoid with all your might but couldn’t.

And so, for anyone else who has spent the past little while grappling with a massive shift or recognizing certain potentials crystallize into dreaded form, I leave you with this bit from Abraham-Hicks, who correctly explain the value of climbing up the Emotional Guidance Scale. We won’t always live in joy, although we certainly can return there through conscious cultivation and awareness. Trying to leap from despair and hopelessness to joy/appreciation/empowered/freedom/love usually results in frustration and rage. No, those aren’t joy, but they’re higher up the scale than hopelessness and despair. Abraham advises reaching for the “next best feeling” and to keep reaching and reaching until we do return to our natural state of flow … optimism, positive expectation/belief, enthusiasm/eagerness/happiness, passion, joy/appreciation/empowered/freedom/love.

If you haven’t experienced a riptide this week, then you might want to tuck away this post for when you do. We all have those moments, though some of us feel and sense more intensely than others. Visionaries seem particularly hard hit by disappointments when Shiva dances on the ashes of what might have been. By allowing ourselves to move through the feelings, though, instead of stuffing them, we can more quickly and thoroughly experience the true blessings of each experience. Each destruction brings with it thousands upon thousands of creative possibilities. “Ask and It Is Given” … not always in exactly the way we imagined … but if we seek it and love it, then we will surely know it whenever and however “it” arrives.

The Emotional Guidance Scale

1. Joy/Appreciation/Empowered/Freedom/Love
2. Passion
3. Enthusiasm/Eagerness/Happiness
4. Positive Expectation/Belief
5. Optimism
6. Hopefulness
7. Contentment
8. Boredom
9. Pessimism
10. Frustration/Irritation/Impatience
11. Overwhelment
12. Disappointment
13. Doubt
14. Worry
15. Blame
16. Discouragement
17. Anger
18. Revenge
19. Hatred/Rage
20. Jealousy
21. Insecurity/Guilt/Unworthiness
22. Fear/Grief/Depression/Despair/Powerlessness

From the book “Ask and It is Given”, pg. 114

20 responses to this post.

  1. Posted by Nancy on May 19, 2014 at 4:19 pm

    This past week has been intense: work related injury and stress. My saving grace has been coming home to my “wildlife sanctuary”, and believe me, it is wild. Like you, I started out with an image of a natural garden retreat I thought I could “manage” with help from the non-visible realms. A Midwest Findhorn garden…. The nature realms which I acknowledge as the true powers-that-be have, over time, shown me the futility of my ambitions – if I wanted to avoid herbicides, insecticides etc. It’s been quite an adventure, esp. since I work at a typical Midwest garden center. But my refuge is still my wildlife (and I emphasize the wild) sanctuary. I’ve got dandelions galore, but also orioles, tanagers, and indigo buntings who don’t mind them a bit! I truly hope you can retain your sanity, and garden dreams, in your neck-of-the-woods… I’ve loved reading your e-mails.

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  2. Posted by mia on May 19, 2014 at 4:25 pm

    Hi Laura~
    I just happened to randomly come upon this artist, Scott Silvey. His medicinal herbs paintings combined with urban landscapes are really gorgeous, and remind me of what you talk about in terms of your gardening experiences, and earth healing. I hope these will inspire you! He also happens to be from Indiana.
    http://www.scottsilvey.net/3_Civic%20Remedies.html
    🙂 mia

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  3. Posted by Nikkoale on May 19, 2014 at 4:38 pm

    Forty-five minutes before this new post was announced by email, one of my “ascension buddies” sent me two notes. One was commenting on your previous post, “A Tale of Two Timelines” and the next was just a short note “how ya doin’?” Intense times for her, too. Lots of my friends, really — aware or not. My friend signed off by saying “crawling out of the mud.” Ah, one of those synchronous exclamation points to let me know to pay extra attention to what you are saying in this post.

    Thank you and blessings, Laura!

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  4. Posted by Sky on May 19, 2014 at 4:59 pm

    We are already in the midst of a huge crash of darkness that is permeating the world. People are either part of this crash, and contributing to it, or they are driven to the path of spirit to make sense of it and deal with it.. At this point in time, the balance of light and darkness in our world has tipped. The dark forces in the world are now greater than the forces of light. As a result, those people who are light seekers and light workers feel this wave of darkness that is now everywhere.

    Like Laura, I, also had ongoing visions and premonitions of things to come in my life, very dreadful things, for several years before they manifested. Not “one” of my attempts to prevent their manifestation worked. The result was a very sudden and devastating “personal” crashing of my world.

    However, there is a world-wide crashing going on. It is occurring in the metaphysical realms while also manifesting in our physical world. I was always a glass half-full kind of gal. I always gave my best and expected the best from others in return. I was definitely an “optimist” in my view of the world.

    It has been a very rude and shocking awakening for me. Realizing that the scales of light and darkness in the world around me have definitely tipped. Goodness and light are now the minority, rather than the majority. This is a fact that needs to be recognized and acknowledged. And RESPONDED TO by people of the light.

    There are no easy answers to the situation that people of the light now find ourselves in. We are the minority, not the majority. How do we respond to this reality in a way that skillfully shows those in darkness how to reach for light? How to become beings of light, rather than beings of darkness?

    That is the question. What are the answers?

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  5. Posted by Clare Spencer on May 19, 2014 at 5:28 pm

    Hi Laura, I spoke to you several months ago…. I guess it is is time. My riptide has grown larger. Things have been percolating, one thing getting larger after the other every time I thought, hey now is the time I will be able to block a few sessions with Laura. One car blew it’s transmission,  the next week it’s engine.  Now that is small fry. My heart is so heavy-  now it is my son. He is going blind. We went to the doc, there is one who can help him- I am so angry and pissed and becoming a WARRIOR, Laura-  mostly by rage right now. My heart hurts so bad.  I have and will continue to do everything to change , become better, more. I am just so filled with GRIEF. I would like to book some time with you as soon as possible. Thanks for listening to my ramblings….  your post just got to me. My riptide. Clare 

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  6. Posted by Sky on May 19, 2014 at 5:39 pm

    I would like to add that the Tibetan people had a warning of a dreadful time to come centuries before its manifestation. The Hopi also had an ancient prophecy that amazingly matched up with the results of the prophecy given the Tibetan people. After Tibet was invaded by the People’s Republic of China, several Tibetan High Lamas met with the Hope to discuss their prophecies. (Factoid: Do you know that Tibetan monks make sand mandalas and the Hopi make sand paintings?)

    My point here is sometimes there is no way to prevent what is to come. Sometimes all we can do is to focus on how best to live with and survive what is to come. At such times, “enduring with grace” and “contentment with what we have” is the best we can aim for.

    Such times as these we live in now are a powerful opportunity to identify and focus on our true innermost desires and priorities. However, they are also a hard lesson that we need to remember that as world walkers, we live in two worlds at once. The world of the spirit and the world of physical reality.

    Some of us, certainly myself, have lived our lives so focused on things of the spirit that we failed to see the changes happening around us for a long time. The darkness that was encroaching. I did finally “sense” the darkness, but was at a complete loss as to what to do to free myself and my family from it. I now realize there is no “freeing” from it, only taking strong action in a way that works and is congruent with our values.

    One of the “answers” to the situation we now find ourselves in is the need to LEARN and USE powerful practices to protect ourselves and help others. NOW not “later”. So as to not just be doormats for beings of darkness to trod over. We need to rise up, individually and collectively, and put into ACTION practices that protect us and enable us to manifest what we need for our protection and basic needs. And help others to do the same.

    I myself have been learning and using the Armanen Runes. (After several years of using the Elder Futhark with no results.) They are working. I have shared specific Runes with a friend and they have worked for her, too. She had very powerful and swift shifts within days in several difficult but similar situations with the use of a single Rune I shared with her for such situations.

    There are many powerful energetic practices out there. Find ones that resonate with you. Then USE them. Regularly and proactively. In other words, “before” things happen to you rather than “after” things happen to you. .

    Lastly, despite whatever difficulties you might be experiencing right now, as Gandhi advised, “Be the change you wish to see in the world”.

    Best wishes to all.

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  7. Posted by Sky on May 19, 2014 at 6:04 pm

    Like an electronic Pied Piper this darkness uses the media and internet to indoctrinate and then hold millions in its sway. What was once the norm in society is now the exception. What was once the exception is now the norm.

    What is needed is for those of us that seek and are of the Light to stand up and take action. To protect ourselves and to help others do the same. Why would those who are of the darkness ever want to change sides if we just lay there like doormats as they trod over us? By action, I do not mean aggressive reaction, but rather strong ongoing proactionary practices of protection and manifestation. We need to become beacons of Light and safe haven from the maelstrom of the forces of darkness that are swirling through our world now.

    Beacons of Light which others will hopefully seek to also become. And so on and so on.

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  8. Posted by mary on May 19, 2014 at 7:57 pm

    Those years were significant for me too, and I get what you mean about that sense of something brewing.

    Personally, I’ve had foundation rocking revelations that, I hope, will continue to shift my gig. Huge, entrenched beliefss and my entire sense of identity is being dismantled. I’m rolling with it and profoundly grateful for finally seeing freedom on the horizon.

    These shifts were preceeded by massive waves of fear and intense depression. Its been quite a ride indeed.

    I keep wondering if Im still feeling an alternate timeline, as if it were happening in this one. Except in this timeline, my ‘destruction’ is coming in the form of finally letting go of all the garbage from my parents and seeing so keenly I’ve been in my ‘child’, for so many years, desparately trying to recreate and heal the past.

    We will see what happens I guess. High drama here in 3D.

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  9. My birthday is 6/14 🙂

    Thanks so much for sharing your experience of living where you are living and also for the reminder of the emotional guidance scale, a concept I’m familiar with but don’t use often enough.

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  10. Posted by Ellas.Infinite.Realm on May 20, 2014 at 3:07 am

    As always, timing is perfection. I have likened the last week or so to being on that carnival ride that reminds me of a spirograph wheel, where I am being thrown from one point to another, trapped in the same circle. 3 minutes? No problem, screaming fun with tears of delight! THIS? Nauseating aloneness. Displaced time traveler wooziness. The faery seem to have abandoned me for finer flowers, the storms and wind stripped my foxglove and the Leprechaun Lady does not come to tea. I finally managed to just dig a big hole to plant a white rose bush when the rain broke and the cold front arrived….and ended up sitting in the hole, the cold damp earth soaking into my clothes, comforting me and holding me like a newborn. Rubbed mud on my face and hands, even rubbed it on my scalp where I’ve developed some wild itchy rash, but in some way, it calmed my nerves and my stomach. I sat there for a long time. Then again, two days ago, there was another shift and my trip to see the dwarves means some of the loneliness is abated, my sword is repaired and made new again, as I am being re-made, too. Today? Turquoise and silvery lights, Tania as a dolphin, and in spite of sheer exhaustion, a feeling of having finished swimming the Channel…skin goopiness, extreme physical hunger and thirst and tiredness beyond description, but also this odd sensation of Having Made It. Delayed Celebration…yet the card is the Star. To you, blessings on the journey and may the wind be at your back! xoxox

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  11. Posted by Nancy on May 20, 2014 at 11:31 am

    I found the following comment interesting in light of your June 14 premonition:

    This period of June 13 – 21 as is being forecast by other higher sources/channels, will be one of the most intense and catalytic periods of the year for Gaia and humanity – not to mention another, even more potent opportunity for the Event or Contact to take place, naturally.
    http://aprilsairings.blogspot.com/2014/05/hs-message-deeper-upcoming-shifts.html

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  12. I had not seen this post pop up for me in my email when you initially posted it Laura. But I did see a reference to it in today’s post, which of course is always the right timing. Thank you so much for sharing this. I certainly can relate and I know many others do as well. You were able to describe it all so beautifully Your vulnerability and sensitivity to the energies, as well as your talent for being able to communicate that so precisely is such a gift. One I appreciate and I know many others do as well. Energetically last week I felt a huge amount of pressure in my head….and everything seemed to be moving really fast in multiple ways. I did have to laugh at your attempt to corral the dandelions. I could see myself and others in the picture you created for us. Thank you for being such a bright light and sharing that light with all of us. Love you bunches. Dawn

    PS I will keep this handy and repost on my blog. it’s such a compassionate and helpful post.

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  13. Reblogged this on Reiki Dawn and commented:
    Love this post by Laura Bruno from yesterday. I know many of us are experiencing the intense energies and will continue to do so. Lot’s of good info here!

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  14. Posted by mia on May 20, 2014 at 8:18 pm

    Hello, Clare Spencer~

    I read your comment about your son losing his vision. I am so sorry to hear this.

    I myself have been suffering from chronic Lyme, and one of my symptoms has been vision problems and at times I was frightened that I was going blind. I am doing much, much better now, and have used many (and only) natural modalities for my healing. My vision has improved and does not bother me as before, and I am sure I will recover fully.
    The most recent modality I have found and incorporated into my treatment is called Inverse Field Energy Treatment. I found it online, and it is energy medicine made by a woman named KC Avnayt from India. It is similar to homeopathy and flower essence remedies, except that it’s custom made for each individual from natural substances (flowers, plants minerals…) made by an alchemical method, and contains so physical substances, just the energetic patterns. She lists many serious illness that she makes treatments for….and KC herself has overcome tremendous trauma and ill health with her own treatments.
    I haven’t wanted to recommend this energy medicine to other people yet, because it is still new to me (I have been using it almost for 4 months now) and I wanted to see how many major improvements I made before telling others about it. What I can tell you is that in less than a month, I had more energy, almost no brain fog, my vision cleared up and I felt positive and happy, as well as feeling and being aware of my aura brightening up. This was huge for me. Unfortunately, I had some personal stuff come up, ended up taking some conventional medicine (which is not my norm, because the 4 times I’ve used it in my life it has made me sick…) which has caused me to relapse. I am almost certain, that had I not made this mistake, I would have continued “on a roll” with my healing. In the past week, I have regained some stability and momentum again with my healing, and I will continue to use Inverse Field Energy Treatment, and I hope with success (it is recommended to use it for a minimum of 6 months for both acute and chronic conditions). Here’s the website if your interested: http://energy-treatments.com/holistic_healing/energy_field_treatment/energy_field_treatment.html

    I hope things get easier for you and your son, and that healing is possible and you are graced with support and love.

    ~Mia Morales

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  15. I feel we’re due for a unexpected shift this year, if it’s not happening already. I don’t know why I feel more hope than fear–maybe I’ve long been tired of fear. I see absolutely fearless people around me now and hate to see when they’re surrounded by people telling them to be afraid of one thing or another. We’ve always had monsters around. We need to create/become/embrace the heroes.

    My life has been a roller-coaster this year. My physical energy comes and goes, income has been patchy, my remaining grandparents passed (my grandfather just yesterday)… but there’s a “you’re not alone! be in joy!” feeling in my heart that persists despite all. If this means I’m sick, I don’t want to be cured.

    May everyone have the light and strength they need.

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  16. Thank you to everyone for all the sharing of thoughts, feelings, intuitions and resources! I do feel we can move through these energies and events, whatever they may be, but paying honest attention to our feelings and observations will help our own personal results. Blessings and love, Laura

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  17. Posted by David on May 21, 2014 at 7:40 pm

    Steady as she goes Dear Ones. Just know that all your prayers are heard and everything is in perfect order. Yes, the birthing does involve some seeming pain, but that pain is transformed into bliss as many of you mothers know well. The dark forces know the time for them is almost over so they are pulling out all stops – be glad that they are in such desperation and the great clearing of them is almost at hand!! Just a welcome sign that we are almost free.

    It is our calling to be here together. We all bring our light and that light will shine into this time line whether we are aware of it or not. Just look at the little ones who will live in the new world in peace together. Can you not see that they already know why they are with us at this time? They see our light and know that we will take care of them after the great changes have occurred.

    We are the creators of this new age. Please take full acceptance that you came into this place with the full knowing of your contribution and the light that you are. It is a most wonderful time and all it requires is a little most shifting into surrender and openness to your unique connection with your best Friend. Has the Friend ever let you down? Ha ha ha ha Such a silly question. Now just a little time in the stillness and you inter voice will speak to you on a much deeper level than before. Do not be concerned if you can not write down the wisdom that comes through you, it is the act of being the wisdom in its flow that is the focus just for you. This is a time of pure being as we all shift together into a more empathetic state.

    Soon we will not have much use for words or communicating in words for our joining together will take over. The internet has helped prepare us for this.

    As we approach the time of outward change, spend more time in the quiet as you deepen your heart connection with the Friend. That has always been your intention anyway has it not?

    You do not require any teachers or books. You are complete. You are your own great teacher. Just a little shift into the flow of your higher self and the love that you are.

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