Autumn Equinox 2012–Closer to Fine

What a week of sessions! My heart goes out to everyone struggling to integrate the new energies as the old seems to fall away faster than it’s replaced.

I’m feeling it, too, but for me it feels like such a celebration! Those sticky spots I’ve felt for so long have finally begun to release. Thank you dreams for finding creative ways to circumvent conscious resistance. I awoke this morning after partaking in a “forgiveness ritual” in a dream, which allowed my subconscious (the actively creating part of my existence) to let something go that my conscious mind kept trying to understand. It was a spontaneous, highly symbolic ritual in the dream, and I awoke with joyful lyrics playing in my conscious mind as the commentary: “There’s more than one answer to these questions … closer I am to fine.” My brain just smiled, as I’ve been asking, asking, asking for release from energetic ties to a binding relationship. My guides had assured me release would come, but perhaps in a wilder way than I expected.

As my brain continued smiling, dancing and celebrating the relief, I realized that this Indigo Girls song expresses so much of what has come to light for others in this week’s sessions.

When old hurts arise and all the old methods of dealing with them fall short, it doesn’t mean that you have fallen short. It means the Universe has given you an opportunity and a strong nudge to transcend the original question. No more old paradigm of fixing broken things — what about the new manifestation beyond your wildest, prior permitted imaginings?

“I went to the doctor, I went to the mountains
I looked to the children, I drank from the fountain
There’s more than one answer to these questions
Pointing me in crooked line
The less I seek my source for some definitive
The closer I am to fine.”

As we move from stark duality into a more integrated holistic approach to life in the hologram, we get to reconnect with Nature, each other, Spirit, and, perhaps most poignantly, we get to reclaim our Soul. That process can feel intense, backwards, lonely and inside out, but the journey results in a closer union and an embodied experience that All is Well. On this day of equal light and equal darkness, let us remember and reaffirm the mystic Julian of Norwich’s comforting words: “All shall be well, and all shall be well, and all manner of thing shall be well.